Yes, I know that most of you will probably have thought I’ve disappeared off the face of the earth – my parents did due to the milk still being in the fridge (I tend to drink A LOT of milk).

 

I get obsess with games – I got two new games at the beginning of the summer, Another Code: R and Star Ocean: The Last Hope. I have finished Another Code: R and nearly finished with my sorta first play-through with Star Ocean.

 

I have FINALLY managed to get past that stupid section in Zelda the Twilight Princess. The part where you have to protect the carriage from the stupid bomb ass bird – I managed to blow the bloody bird up and move on the next stage – finally. See, if I prevail at something, I will eventfully win *Grins*

 

For Star Ocean: The Last Hope – I started it three times. The first time, I got stuck because I didn’t charge up my Thunder rings before heading forward *rolls eyes*. The second time, I was past the boss of the above but I got my walkthrough and found out that you get secret endings therefore you need to the private events in certain order which led me to creating a new gamer card and starting the game from scratch but I’m not getting one of the private events that I had been looking forward too which means that another scene that I was told to trigger had stopped it from happening *rolls eyes*.

 

After I’ve finished that play-through – nearly at the last boss! I will be doing the game once more in order to tape the cut-scenes and such so I can watch it anytime I want without having to get sucked in the game.

 

And in reply to my last message – no I did not get to celebrate the end of College with Season 6 of Charmed so I could get my Drew Fuller fill. Amazon had it a ridiculous price of £56 while the two other stores didn’t have them in stock, which meant I had to wait until they had brought it in stock but thankfully – as I prevailed – Amazon finally brought the price down to £13 so it meant I could get it! Finally got the DVD today and my Drew Fuller goodness - he's just hot!

 

My plans for my birthday (Which is the tenth of July – Friday in the UK) – buy more games – I want to get Star Ocean: The Last Hope limited edition and Animal Crossing: Let’s go to the City. I’m supposed to get perfume – Rock ‘n Dreams but I don’t think it is out at the moment as I can’t find it anywhere and I’m getting a cake! (Me to You - I love this bear!)

 

Best news? NO Party – Finally! Ever since I was one years old, I had been having a party every fricking year when last year, I finally confronted my mother and informed her that since I was turning 22, there was no reason to celebrate my birthday with a party because it’s not a mile-stone. She finally relented (Thankfully) and I’m getting off scot free *Whoo hoo!*

 

 

Anyway – I have gotten off track, I only meant to come here to inform you the updates of my stories –bear in mind, the stories below are in forum alphabetical order – not posting order so if you want to read a story, you will need to wait until I have completed the chapter/story and posted it.

 

 

Story List

 

Final Fantasy – The Insanity of a Nightmare – Cloud/Tifa

                          Multi-Chaptered – Series

                          Mature/Adult

 

Summary: Cloud and Zack weren’t the only ones who Hojo took when he found them in the Mako Reactor. He also took Tifa and did his experiments but one even more sadistic…

            Since losing his son, Sephiroth, he decides he wants a new child and Tifa is more than perfect to carry the child while Cloud is more than perfect to father the child and both of them will give into their desire…even if they want to or not…

 

Status: Coming Soon

 

 

Harry Potter – Love Bites – Harry/Hermione

                          Multi-Chaptered

                          Mature/Adult

 

Summary: Harry Potter has a secret that he kept from the wizarding world but Hermione found out the secret in their third year. Now Harry must embrace his dark side if he is to rid the world of Voldemort and bring about the new world…

 

Status: Currently working on

 

 

Harry Potter – Lost without You – Draco/Luna

                         3 Chaptered Story

                         Mature

 

Summary: Draco made a mistake which resulted in the break up of him and Luna. Pleading his best friend, Hermione, he convinces her to sing a song in order to reach Luna’s heart but there is a problem…Luna is dating Ron.

            Will Luna have a choice to make?

 

Status: Coming Soon

 

 

Resident Evil – The End of the World - Mikey/K-Mart

                          One Shot

                          Mature

 

Summary: Set during the third film. Mikey and K-Mart decides that life is far too short for them to ignore their desire

 

Status: Coming Soon

 

 

Star Ocean – Dreams – Edge/Reimi

                      One Shot

                       Teen

 

Summary: Reimi reflects back on how she got here today

 

Status: Coming Soon

 

 

Star Ocean – Shower Accident – Edge/Reimi

                      One Shot

                       Mature

 

Summary: Edge and Reimi have a pleasurable accident in the shower that makes them re-evaluate their friendship.

 

Status: Coming Soon

 

 

Star Ocean – A Helping Hand – Edge/Reimi

                      One Shot

                       Teen

 

Summary: Someone decides she needs to knock some sense into Edge over his self-pity party before he loses the one person he needs more than anyone in the universe. (Character is OC)

 

Status: Coming Soon

 

 

Star Ocean – Birthday Make Up -Edge/Reimi

                      6 Chaptered Story

                      Teen/Mature

 

Summary: Edge makes up for not getting Reimi a present for her 20^th birthday…

Status: Coming Soon

 

 Star Ocean – Fantasies and Confusion - Edge/Reimi

                      Multi-chaptered

                       Teen/Mature

 

Summary: Faize is confused about what is going on with Edge and Reimi especially when he hears strange things coming from Reimi’s room… set throughout the game.

 

Status: Coming Soon

 

 

Zelda – The Twilight Princess – Link/Malon

             Multi-chaptered

            Teen/Mature/Adult

 

Summary: Link did go to Hyrule to give the sword the King only to meet Malon, a simple farm girl before the Twilight took over. Malon has a secret that will impact everything Link believes in as he searches to bring the end of the Twilight and the answers to his past…

 

Status: Coming Soon

So, let me know what you think of the above and I'll see you around!

Hey everyone - got two new prompts written - let me know what you thought if you want!

#41 - Strawberries - Capell and Aya alone... M for certain situations
Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/5/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU


#93 - Ponder - Capell ponders about some things
Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/6/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU



And on to more news - by this Friday I will have finished my course at college - Yay! and I shall be celebrating with a brand new dvd box set of Charmed season 7 just so I can drool over Drew Fuller (He's hot!) but that is actually my favourite season out of the series - seems like I have a lot.

With free time on my hands, I'll be free to write, babysit and annoy my family for the summer - I don't have anywhere to be (Thankfully) and I have nothing to do (Thankfully).

So you might be seeing a lot of me on LJ, you might not but whatever the case may be - over the weekend - I come with a sign that says 'disturb me at your own risk' and trust me, I'm handy when it comes to throwing things when I need to be.

I hope you all are counting down the days the summer holidays are almost here!

My advice for the end - Make sure you have something to celebrate with!
My Quote for today - Just because everyone else's doing it, doesn't mean you can't have your own brain.

I'm out, take care of yourselves and later!
XOXO

I just wanted to let you all know I've posted another 2 prompt fics.

#17 - Soup - Capell wonders about Sigmund and Seraphina's love for soup. Rated M for conversation *Snickers*
Link:www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/3/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

#85 - Umbrella - Capell needs a solution...
Link:www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/3/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

Alright - I wanted to give you all heads up for my First Prompt Table (See how proud I am of it? *Grins insanely before shaking head*). I still can't believe that I have done one but I decided what the heck. This may be my first one but I'm hoping it won't be my last one so let me know what you all think.

My First One is set in Infinite Undiscovery forum (If you have never played it and have a 360 - GET IT! Ignore all the stupid critics - they all rave about games that I find are completely stupid and a waste of my time yet they complain about this game and I found it quite entertaining - yes, there are flaws to the game but I dare you all to name ONE game that does NOT have a flaw!)

Characters who will be involved - Just about everyone *Rolls eyes* but to refresh your memories if you have played the game but forgotten it or that there were too many people to remember (34 - main and minor - that I counted).

Characters:

Capell, Aya, Rico, Rucha, Edward, Eugene, Sigmund, Michelle, Gustav, Dominica, Savio, Balbagan, Touma, Komachi, Genma, Kiriya, Vic, Kristofer, Seraphina, Leonid, Saranda, Faina, Queen Svala, and Emir Sharukh. Others may be mentioned at one point or another.

Couples:

Aya/Capell are the predominate couple because I love this couple the best.

There will be other couples like Sigmund/Michelle, Leonid/Saranda, and possibly one sided Faina/Capell (Apologies to who likes this couple).

Rating:

Will go up to Mature for sexual situation - it will be hinted/written but not to the point where its graphically written. If the chapter contains mature content, it will have a 'M' in the introduction part so if you are underage yet ignored my warning and went ahead, I will not be held responsible because you have been caught - you are on your own there.


Other than that, I hope you will like it and let me know what you think. I will be writing my own point of view of the stories/situations and I am interested in hearing your views so don't be shy, just let me know either way.

I have done two prompts already so either click on the links that are shown after this sentence.

Links:
#91 - Deaths - Capell thinks back on everything
Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/1/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

#1 - Red - Red always means something to someone
Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/2/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

Notes for the table:

Italic/bold - I have written a chapter for that prompt.
Red - Mature rating
Orange - Set after the game
Blue - Set during the game
Purple - AU during the game
If there are different colours of above in one - means they are involved!

Table:

Paws for Thoughts – IU

Prompts

 

Colours

 

1) Red	5) Purple	9) Yellow
2) Blue	6) Green	10) Orange
3) Black	7) Silver	11) Gold
4) Pink	8) White	12) Brown

 

 

Food/Juice

 

13) Milk	19) Rabbit	25) Rice	31) Salt	37) Apples
14) Juice	20) Fox	26) Crab	32) C. Powder	38) Lemons
15) Tea	21) Chicken	27) Mushroom	33) Butter	39) Melons
16) Wine	22) Dragon	28) Peppers	34) Oil	40) Tomatoes
17) Soup	23) Prehistoric	29) Honey	35) Vegetables	41) Strawberry
18) Bread	24) Fish	30) Syrup	36) R. Jelly	42) Eggs

 

 

 

Creatures

 

43) Bugs	46) Undead	49) Snakes	52) Mimics
44) Lizards	47) Wolves	50) Gigas	53) Gluttons
45) Bears	48) Harpies	51) Birds	54) Centipedes

 

 

 

Weapons* based on Characters

 

55) Swords	59) Staffs	63) Great swords
56) Bows	60) Grimoires	64) Dual Daggers
57) Batons	61) Drums	65) Axes
58) Katana	62) Daggers	66) Claws

 

 

Personal Skills* based on Characters

 

67) Capell	73) Eugene	79) Vic
68) Aya	74) Balbagan	80) Touma
69) Rico	75) Michelle	81) Komachi
70) Rucha	76) Savio	82) Kiriya
71) Edward	77) Gustav	83) Kristofer
72) Sigmund	78) Dominica	84) Seraphina

 

 

 

Others

 

85) Umbrella	89) Flute	93) Orders	97) Secrets
86) Gustav	90) Ponder	94) Errand Boy	98) Camping
87) Clothing	91) Deaths	95) Treasure Hunters	99) Orders of Chain
88) Slips	92) Bathing	96) Cupid	100) First Meetings

 

Oh - and if you have a prompt you would like to add in - just let me know what kind it is and where you think it will fit and I will try my best to write it out. Or, if you want to give the prompt table a try - let me know first hand so I know that other people are doing the prompts otherwise I will get confused.

Do you ever have those days you just feel like screaming cause everything seem to be pushing you under their weight? Its time like this I wish I could just pack up a bag, grab a flight and head somewhere no one knows so they can't find me - will it happen? Only if I suddenly lose my memory, stranded somewhere.

I have a presensation coming up and all I want to do is run for the hills. I hate Presensations. I don't even see why we need them in Holistic Therapies! My teacher says our group needs to work like a team - kinda hard to do that when one refuses to listen but hey - that's life, right?

Four or so weeks until the summer holidays and I haven't even done my assessment needed to pass the course - why? Because the Board is balking due to the fact I'm deaf. Maybe if they actually created a proper consulation sheet, I wouldn't have to go to all the trouble of having to create one that is suitable for me and the client...and I've accepted to go back the following year - Have I lost my mind? or just plain crazy?

Stories/Fanfiction - don't even get me started. I'm so stressed out with everything else that my stories have taken a backburner (Sorry to those who are reading 'Love Bites' I can try all I want, I just can't seem to sit down long enough to actually put the story into words - really annoying - not to mention I have all these other ideas but they have to wait until 'Love Bites' is finished before I can concentrate on them - which is a shame because I have a really good idea for a Final Fantasy VII story (Cloud/Tifa Aerith/Zack - before everyone gets too excited) and I would love to get a head start on it.

Talking about Final Fantasy VII - I hope you all know that Advent Children Complete should be hitting the UK shops July the 13th (Monday - not a friday so those who are supersitious doesn't need to worry) - the best news? It's only available on Blue-Ray - which is just fantastic cause it means for me to watch those kick ass scene of where Tifa actually beat up those skeleton-wolf like creature than just covering Denzel, Cloud saving Denzel by throwing a sword, Sephrioth lifting Cloud into the air with his sword (Crisis Core similarities?) and Zack Fair (I live in denial that he dies in the game - refuse to go past getting Cloud out of the Mako tube - I hope those jerks are kicking themselves for killing off one of the best characters ever!) to have more screen time - I have to buy a fricking Blue-Ray DVD.

Now don't fret - I ALWAYS have a plan for something, it wouldn't do if something goes wrong and I don't have a back up. As it's nearly my birthday, I am trying to convince my mother into letting me pay for half of it or just pay it off over time with a card...cross your fingers and hope that I get it - happy me means a happier world! (I wish)

So...what do I do to counter my frustration? Why, play games of course. What could be better than bashing enemies up on TV and venting my frustration (It has to better than going out and actually beating people up - don't think my family would be too impress with me) but unfortnately I'm playing Infinite Undiscovery and it has gotten me hooked again! I'm looking for fanfictions with Aya/Capell - this is my fave couple out of them all and they SO had sex - I don't care what people say, it's 16+ so sexual themes are involved - stated plenty of time during the game with Capell freaking out over Rusha knowing something she shouldn't, Tomua being Naive and Capell apparently sneaking out to watch Aya bathing, said by Komachi.

Tsk, tsk Capell, that'll teach you to spy on someone while a nightwhisper is watching you. Beside - does any guy actually act completely and utterly goofy over a kiss or a hug? Nope - that guy had 'I just had sex' glow all over him. Beside, Aya was shy as she walked past Domnica - she's been a bad girl...depending on who you ask.

Gotta get mind back on track! Jeez!

Just to let you all know, I have new One True Pairings!

Mark/Lexie - Grey's Anatomy - love them or hate them (but give vaild reasons rather than the rubbish ones I've been hearing lately) Mer/Derek is getting boring and I'm beginning to hate Derek. I really hate Alex - he says he loves Izzy but can't tell something is going on with her - George could tell for crying out loud! George - I never liked him and Lexie, I always thought Lexie was too good for him. Lexie and Mark have a special relationship - he fought to keep her - he fought Derek for her! That says more about Mark than anything else does.

Spike/Fred - Angel - they adore each other and they flirted (science but flirty) Spike and Fred are good for each other! I never really liked the whole Buffy/Spike thing - she used him whenever she wanted to feel better, she was hell bent on keeping their relationship a secret but when it comes to the crunch, she runs like usual - frankly, I thought she became more of bitch when Angel left.  Wesley - man, I hate that guy - he wasn't worthy of Fred and do not get me started on Gunn.

Draco/Luna - Harry Potter - I know, weird couple but I feel Draco was underused and wasted (JK needs to work a little bit more on her characters) and Luna was one of my fave - which is why the fifth book is my fave other than Harry and Hermione's brilliantly close relationship - and I was so disappointed that she had been practically cut out of the story - what was the whole point of writing a chapter about her only to cut her out? Yes, I used to like Ron/Luna but over time - especially seventh book when the prat left AGAIN, I felt Luna deserves someone way better - don't like that Hermione ended up with Ron and Harry ended up with Ginny - more on that later, but I dealt - as far as I'm concern, the films are a waste, according to the reviewers.

Rant beginning....

Okay - sue me but I HATE it when the hero ends up with the damsel in distress - I perfer a woman with a kick ass backbone-like-steel. Ginny was a complete and utter damsel in distress that I was half expecting her to be locked away in Hogwarts just waiting to drop her hair down for Harry to climb (Note: There is a reason why Cinderella is my fave disney movie out of the lot).

Ron - I felt he should have died, everything was built up for that and I was extrememly disappointed (Then again, what's new?) I do not care what Ron worshipping fans says - He turned his back on Harry TWICE - in real life, he would have had his ass handed to him and kicked out of their lives - you don't turn your back on your friends when they need you the most. I don't care that he missed his family or couldn't cope with the outdoor life or the war. That's life, you suck it up and move on - you don't go home crying to your mommy (Which he did).

He was an immature jealous prat who needed a swift kick up his ass, he whined and complained that his family didn't have money or honour or whatever and wanted what Harry had - money and fame when Harry would have given it all up just to have one more day with his family  - Harry lived in an abusive household, he didn't complain. Ron comes from a family with love, he complained. Ron fans can kiss my ass - he was a weak pathetic character who would have been better off killed off or turn evil - he was heading in that direction anyway (But of course JK can't let her books go off track and kept bringing him back).

...Rant over

On to new programmes - Lie to Me! Best programme ever and I have only seen one episode. I love men who are cynical bastards who tell you what they think - it's so refreshing to people who just take everything standing there. It's nice to see people actually stand up for themselves and telling people what they really think. (Lie to Me, Mentalist and House - the only actors to make cynical bastards hot and cool!)



News - My aunt has a baby boy, who is the cutest thing I have ever seen. Had a baptaiztim on Sunday and the priest kept glaring at me, stupid bastard - just because I like fire does not mean I'm a demon in disguise. I hate church, the bible book burns my hand and I'm just half expecting Dante to come through the stain glass window of the ceiling and blow the priest away (too much Devil May Cry *Rolls Eyes*) Church is annoying and he had no right to glare at me! Watch and see if I ever enter a church again (Don't care if my future husband is a church goer - I'm NOT changing for anybody and planning on Eloping).

Anyway - baby is extremely cute but the one thing I hate is when people have never had children just bounce the babies - I kept thinking he was going to just fly out of their arms! Babies like rocking motions as it reminds them of the wombs - mother don't go around hopping like a flipping kangeroo do they?


Gotta go - Mentalist is coming on! *Grins and squees*

 

If you like Mark/Lexi from Grey's Anatomy - head over to this site to help us fill it up!


http://littlebigfics.unexpectedly.org/index.php

I have a new Harry Potter story out! Check it out!

Title: Love Bites

Characters: Harry/Hermione Draco/Luna

Rating: Mature/Adult

Summary: There was another reason why Harry avoided Hermione in third year, he has a secret that he kept from the Muggle and Wizarding world but now he must harness the secret if he is to take down Voldemort.

Question is…will anyone accept him?

Warning: Consensual sex, Vampirism acts, Bashing of Ron and Molly, Bondage, Soul Bonding, Violence and Character Deaths.

Link: http://roswellfanatics.net/viewtopic.php?f=30&t=20145 - Roswell Fanatics 
         http://hp.adultfanfiction.net/story.php?no=600021823 - AdultFanfiction.net
         http://fanfiction.portkey.org/story/8347 -Portkey.org
         http://www.fanfiction.net/secure/story/story_edit.php?storyid=4887472/1/  - Fanfiction.net

Up to you where you want to go!

Hi - I'm looking for fan fictions and I was hoping that someone out there could point me in the right direction.

I'm seeking Kasumi/Ryu Hayabusa fan fictions, fan sites or web pages (Dead or Alive).

I don't mind what ages they are or what other couples they are as long it has Kasumi/Ryu as a couple. I've been going crazy looking for fan fictions since DOA 4 because I thought more people would start writing fan fictions but it wasn't meant to be.

I have, currently, written 3 dead or alive stories and 2 of them contains Kasumi/Ryu. I'm writing a long shot and 2 short stories that will contain Kasumi/Ryu.

If anyone could help me, I would be eternally grateful.

Thanks!

It is times like these you wonder why you bother. Despite being friends since childhood, you can’t help but wonder if it’s time to let the friendship go. Is it smothering you or is it preparing you for life? How do you know the right time? How do you know when a friend stop being a friend and becomes a burden?

It’s never a surprise when she calls up to cancel on me anymore, I have come to accept it but does that mean our friendship has come to an end? When she doesn’t tell me everything yet expects me to tell her everything. Someone who you respect yet can’t show the same for you?

I love my family and I don’t mind hanging out with my little sister. It’s not as if I’m being forced to baby-sit – she’s nearly 14, but when is it against the law to have fun with your own family? When your friend is having a hard time with hers, she expects you to be on the same side as hers? Or when she starts dissing your family because she feels they are taking advantage of you yet she does the same to you – expects you to be there for her when she needs you but cancels at the last minute because her family/boyfriend needs her more than you do? How does that work?

At least, with my family, they give me a straight answer whenever I ask them a question – it’s not a rocket science question when you ask someone if they are going to meet you the day you planned to meet up yet it is to your best friend who keeps talking about a completely different day when you just want a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question?!

How hard is it? ‘Are we going to meet up tomorrow?’ Yes or No – geez, that was hard for me to answer (Sarcasm here).

Is it fair for me to sit around and wait for her when she can’t do the same to me? It’s always changing the time then changing her mind – I can’t do that, I do have other friends and my family who have made plans with me – why should I change them just because my friend keeps changing her mind when she wants to see me?

Is it fair for me to put up with her judging my friends despite the fact she doesn’t know them? I mention one thing they have done and she instantly doesn’t like them – apparently they are a bad influence on me but it makes me wonder – how can we be complete opposite of each other – how can I not be judgemental of people I’ve never met yet she can completely hate my friends based on one thing that she doesn’t like?

I express my concerns, she express her hates – I guess it could seem the same to her – she’s expressing my concerns and I’m expressing my hate but I give reasons to why I’m friends with them – I don’t care if they are gay or if they are a player or if they prefer a different book to her but she holds on tight and doesn’t let go.

It is fair of her to push me to date when I don’t want to just so she can feel better about herself for dating an older man? I’m not ready to date – I’ve never dated, yes, I have been asked out my I have said no.

Of course, everyone is always shocked when I tell them that and they demand to know why I turned them down – yes, they were great and I know that whoever dates them would be very lucky to have them in their lives but they are not for me.

I’m not ready, emotionally and mentally, for a relationship. I just don’t feel ready. Is that so wrong of me? Do I need to see a therapist or a doctor because I’m 21 years old, a virgin and have never dated anyone in my life? Sure, I’ve kissed but that what it was – just a kiss. It meant nothing to me and nothing to them.

Is there something wrong with me for that? It sure feels like it whenever I’m surrounded by them. Older people tell me that there is nothing wrong with me, that it’s perfectly normal for not wanting to date and I will know when I’m ready and I appreciate them for that – now you can see why I can relate better to older people than I do with people my ages – they don’t judge me and they don’t pressure me.

But every time I’m in my friends company – my doubts arises and I start to wonder if there really is something wrong with me – do I deserve this doubt for turning down the boys who have asked me out? Do I deserve this doubt for not giving into pressure and sleeping with the boys when they have asked me or would I have regretted it for my entire life that I gave into the pressure? We will never know because you can’t go back in time and if you can – you shouldn’t.

It is times like these you sit back and wonder if friendship is really worth it till you remember the good times you had – the times you laughed and shared secrets, you could tell each other everything and wouldn’t get judged.

Maybe I’m looking in the wrong place for friends or maybe some people are just not meant to have friends – either way – how do you know that a friendship has run its course and are better off set free?

I don’t…and I’m too scared to open my eyes to face the reality.

Question of the day: Does friendship save a life or hinder it?

According to my friends (both Male and Female) I don't act like a Virgin...one question, how do you act like a virgin?

Yes, I talk about sex, I am 20 coming 21, but big deal, you have to know about sex before you actually have sex otherwise there is no point in having sex because you don't know what is going to happen. Me, I've known about sex since I was seven years old and it doesn't embarrass me because sex is a natural part of our lives...how else are babies made (Other than the other routes) but why should I have to act like I'm a virgin and not know about sex?

My male friends, the most, says that I'm wasting time by staying a virgin and that I should find a boyfriend straight away, sorry if I'm actually a little busy with college at the moment, I can't afford the distraction that could cost me my grade at the end of the year, by passing this, I have free range to do what I want in my career and that seems a little important.

I know that my first time will suck, seems like everyone does, but is it truly wrong for me to want to wait till I've met someone I feel I could really care about? Maybe even love or am I just being delusional?

Of course, that doesn't stop them from offering themselves (In other words, pressure me) for me to 'practice' on...why do they think I would sleep with them? I care about them but not sexually, there is a major difference there! Beside, that means losing my virginity to them and I'm not that confident they deserve it.

I mean, since when is a person not allowed to know about sex till they have actually done it? So, I know most of the sexual positions but it doesn't mean that I'm practicing them out in secret, I do read you know otherwise my life would be hard considering the fact I need subtitles to understand the programme/films and my college includes reading. There are also plenty of films/sex educational films out there that can help people understand.

Of course, it could be that I'm confident in myself and don't really give a damn about what other thinks of me. If I know about sex, big deal but why is it such a big deal that a virgin is knowledgeable about sex in theory than practice? I understand the boys (They are not men, trust me) but why is a big deal with the other girls? My female friends finds it hard to believe I'm a virgin, despite the fact they know I don't date and any boys I do meet up just becomes a friend of mine. Of course, I know the boys just wants to be the one to 'break the cherry' so to speak but what about the girls? I hardly think they are interested in me sexually considering the fact they've all got boyfriends.

In other words, why should a girl be expected to be a slut when she knows about sex and a virgin is expected to be dumb when it comes to sex?

According to my teachers (old and new), Clients, my family and even my doctor, I don't act like I'm deaf....how the HELL does that work?

Sure, I can talk but so can everyone else, they just have different means of conversing with other people - these things do happen. But my main question is...to the public view, just how is a deaf person supposed to act? Dumb? (The person who thought up this saying should be shot). There are plenty of smart deaf people out there (I do know some idiots but they don't really count to be honest) and they can all lead their lives pretty well despite the fact they are deaf but why does the public continue to say we don't act like we are deaf?

Take me, I'm the only person in my family who is deaf (My papa doesn't count as his hearing loss is due to age) and so far, all testings shows that the doctors have NO idea why I'm deaf (Why am I going through this again?) so basically I grew up surrounded by hearing people (Mostly boys are all my male cousins were born around the same time as me or same length - there's not even a huge gap of age between any of us) and my primary school that I went two only had two deaf people, me and another boy who was a year younger than us.

I got along fine with my classmates and my teachers have said in their reports that my classmates have even asked me for help when they were stuck with something.

My secondary school is where it all hit hard, there was a Hearing mpaired Unit (HIU), which we called the Deaf Unit. That was when I first met more than enough deaf people and I have noticed they act differently but they don't act like they are deaf.

Question is...how does the public see a deaf person (in their mind or in reality) and why am I such a surprise to them?

Question of the day: Is being a Virgin such a big deal because of life known today or is it just a shock that girl can have a moral when it comes to sexual relationships?

What is it with everyone when it comes to books/games being made into films then chewing them out?

I watched Resident Evil, 3rd, and I enjoyed it, No, I've never played the game - I tried it once but the cameras sucked so I gave up - no point in trying to kill myself.

I get that people expect it to be just like the books/games but don't make me laugh. If I didn't expect Harry Potter to follow the books when it was made into a film, I am most certainly not expecting the games to be the same when made into films. If I can see that, then surely everyone else can.

The reason why they wouldn't create the games into films because it limits everything. No one wants to see a repeat of the game, I don't - if I nearly got a headache with the camera angles in the game, I don't even wanna know what I would be like if it had been the same in the film.

Maybe I'm biased when it comes to Films but I don't see the problem with having a female lead. I have no problem with a male lead but to be honest, seeing the male just carry a gun and throw a punch every now and then, it does tend to wear on you and it's better having a woman who can kick ass rather than cowering in the corner expecting the man to save her.

Wake up and smell the coffee, Woman are taking their own leads into the world and it's bound to hit the film. Women are more likely to be projects because of how everything used to be. Men like men and scared of woman who can speak their mind.

If you want to see a film based on a game, exactly like the game...there is only one thing you can do - PLAY THE GAME! Quit going to the movies when you know that it's not going to follow the route. You know it's not going to follow it yet you whine and you complain that it's not following the route.

Do I complain about Harry Potter and the Dark Materials being screwed up? No...why, because I knew they would never follow the game. Now, guarantee that I've not actually had any games made into films (Other than Dead or Alive, which I avoided like mad because the trailer was just crap and I prefer computer generation when it comes to games), I can still see the annoyance but if you really like the game...don't watch the film. It is simple as that.

You're the one who are wasting your time and your money on watching/buying the film when you know it's not going the same direction yet you still do it? 

Question is...why do you continue to do this to yourself when you know it's not going to go the way you want it to go?

Think about it and don't complain!

Seriously - what the HELL is up with this show?

At first I was all excited because we have a new Clark Kent background Programme to watch and at the beginning I got into Clark and Lana being a couple (Though I knew it wouldn't last because Clark was meant to be with Lois) but come on! We are on - what? Sixth season now and they STILL have Lana as the main character - WTF?!

I thought the show was supposed to be about Clark Kent realizing that he was an alien and indestructible and him growing up to become the man we know as Superman - who the hell said that Lana Lang is Superwoman? I mean, seriously? The whining woman who complains that everyone dies on her?

Very sorry that Whitney died in war, very sorry that Jason died on you during a metor attack. Very sorry that your parents died on your while they came to pick you up but it doesn't give you the right to whine every two flipping seconds.

At first, I liked Lana - she was interesting next door girl, the one what you see is what you get (Man! Was I wrong about that?) but now she has become the major star of the show! It's like the directors are trying to think up what would make her 'perfect'.

Erm...here's my thought - Dead! 

I don't give a damn what excuse the director has (they have a crush on Kristen - jeez, pervet much? I really do feel sorry for Kristen - she deserves way better) but they have to admit that she is getting pretty thin.

Girl who has guys falling all over her - Lana.
Girl who has to be a damsal in distress - Lana.
Girl who has to kick ass - Lana.
Girl who needs to have a background as a witch - Lana.
Girl who needs to get married to Lex - Lana (What the hell was Lex drinking at the time?!)
Girl who needs to have every single guy wrapped around her finger and another guy in her back pocket - Lana. (If you haven't notice this, don't feel bad - we were all wearing the pink Lana glasses).
Girl who needs to be in a bad relationship causing Clark to rescuse her at every time - Lana.
Girl who can keep secrets but no one else is allowed to keep secrets from her - Lana
Girl who CAN'T have anyone falling OUT of love with her...are you seeing a pattern here? Lana wins again.

If you think Lana is perfect - then why are you reading this?

My first thought - 'oh, she's the next door girl, the one what you see is what you get' HA! Laugh in my face why don't you? I have never met a more bitchier, self absorbed, spoiled little brat to walk on screen (And trust me, I've had my fair share of hating characters - I don't hate Ayane more than I hate Lana.)

Every guy she dates (Seems to meet a sticky end if you think about it - AH! She IS a black widow!) always seems to be trying to get out of her control and when that happens - she goes to the person she has in back pocket to sort them out. Don't believe me?

Whitney - Clark
Clark - Lex
Jason - Clark
Clark - Lex
Lex - Clark.

Only god can hope that she doesn't sink her claws into Clark again.

When did this show stop becoming about Clark Kent and start being about Lana Lang? What happened to Lois Lane or Chloe Sullivan - heck! I'd go for more evil Luthor or even bring back the horse! That horse had more commonsense that girl - he did kick her *Grins evily as she remembers*

*Back to reality* The directors need to buck up their ideas and kick Lana Lang's slutty ass out of the town (I find it hard that she has not slept with Whitney or Jason - sorry.) so Kristen can find a proper job with someone who would actually respect her. I saw her in Snow White and she was BRILLIANT in it - she has a great talent and a great potential for future films/programmes - only if the men will let her go.

People have left the show because they said they didn't like where it was going - can any of us see where it's going? Let me give you a hint.

'Welcome to Smallville - the town of Metorites' -> 'Welcome to Lanaville, where Lana is our Queen'.

If that happens - then book me on the next spaceship out into space and may I pity Clark Kent for being forever doomed to go back to Whiny Lana Lana when he could have a hottie like Lois Lane in his bed.

Have you ever had those times where you feel eyes staring at your back only for you to realize that you are alone. That's there's no one else in the room with you - well, no one you can see. 

I know a lot of people brush it off and say 'it's just your imagination' but really, when does the line between Overactive Imagination stop and it becomes something that is too real for you to brush off.

Take me for example. I was in the shower. Both parent at work, sister at school. No pets, no one in the house. Front door is locked and so is the bathroom yet I still felt like there was someone in the shower with me. I turn around and freak out when I see a floating face past my shower curtains.

Sure - that could be an overactive imagination - I mean, the people who really knows me can say 'oh there she goes, watching more horror films or playing more horror survival games' but when does that line stop and you realize that you are not really alone. My heart was pounding like fast and I just laughed it off, saying that I was just imagining it but was I really? The more I try and analyze it, the more I realize that I can't. There is no explanation given.

Sure, people can say that ghosts don't exist - but then again, we all thought the world was flat and that the sun revolved around the earth. Why should it be a surprise to find out that Ghost just might exist.

Have you ever had that feeling before, where you're walking somewhere then all of a sudden you just stop in mid-step and look back only to realize that there was no reason to stop. No one called your name, no one made any attempt to attract your attention yet you just stopped and for the life of you, you can't figure out why?

Why does these things happen? A sense of De-Ji-Vu? Sure - I seem to get that a lot but is it a warning or is it something more...spiritual?

All I'm saying is, don't be in a hurry to close your mind to the possibilities that someone just may be watching you while you're in the shower - after all, ghosts can be peeping toms too.

Quote: Don't look back - you might not like what you see.

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You Are Valentine's Day

You are a true romantic who places the ultimate importance on love. You are warm hearted, and you find it easy to care for people. Love is what drives you - and you have a love to give. You enjoy making someone's day. You're full of surprises. What makes you celebrate: Being with the person you love on a special day At holiday get togethers, you do best as: The sentimental one On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: See it as romantic and special

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I was filling out my form for a Disability Allowance but I came to a stop at a page that asked me to write down how my hearing has affected my life (To talk about problems that I hadn't written in the pages before it) and it got me thinking - really thinking.

How has my disability affected my life?

I can't hear - sure but am I really missing anything out? I wear hearing aids thus I can 'technially' hear but there are things I do miss out - conversations, it's harder to hear the lyrics unless I have the written Lyrics with me but am I really missing anything out?


I don't have to answer the phone (No sales people who won't take no for an answer), I don't have to answer the door (More sales/relgions people). These are all the things you get when you have normal hearing - sure, you can have conversations with people you love/like on the phone but I can do the same thing - texts messages and it's more thoughtful because the people are taking the time to text the message to make sure it's what it like.

Of course - there are a bunch of coward who would rather dump a person over text (I mean, come on! At least have the courage to face them to dump them!)

I can use the e-mail - which is actually quite handy than sending a letter (Unless you write a letter and post it yourself - do you really want to wait a couple of days before the person gets them?)

I understand people over the internet better than I do in real life? Why - in real life, we all have a persona that creats a wall around us and we can't really admit to things on real life that we can over the internet because of the anoyomous - these people can't judge you because they only know of your interest - not you.

My mother tried to explain that there are things that I'm missing out being deaf - that I actually might be more outgoing than I am now - that I would actually like going to the cinema because I can hear the film or going for a cup of coffee with a friend or going to a nightclub.

Well one - I would be surprised if anyone can actually understand most of the films these days - before, I could sit there and understand the plot but now - they have made the plot so complicated that the film has now turned complicated. - Why go to the cinema to be confused when you can get the DVD and be confused at home with the option of rewinding to understand a part better.

Two - I HATE coffee so why would I want to go and get one with my friend? She actually meant that I would be more liable to go outside with my friends rather than sit around in the house - well, I would prefer the house rather than outside because there aren't really any seats you can sit on outside so you can talk.

Three - Nightclubs? I get a headache just going to a party - why on earth would I want to go to a nightclub.

Please bear in mind that I'm 20 and I don't drink, do drugs or smoke - I have enough problems in my life without those three making it even more tougher and how on earth do you have a conversation in a nightclub - if normal people can barely hear each other in a nightclub - what chance do I have?

I can go out - but why be lonely surrounded by people when you can be lonely in your home, content with whatever you are doing?

Me being deaf is like a break for me - I can sleep at night without any noises annoying me and when I take off my hearing aids and just walk the streets, completely deaf - it's like being on another world. You can just go through the motions without any barrier preventing you.

Sure - I find it hard to cross the road, especially with the drivers they are today but doesn't everyone? I try and look both ways but when a driver is speeding off - you don't really get a chance, do you?


Me being deaf - I've never had any complaints about being deaf - it made me who I am, I'm more understanding because I know what it's like to be sterotyped - you go into a cafe or something and someone finds out that you are deaf and starts acting like you are dumb - it's worth the look on their face when they realise that I can actually speak and I speak like a normal human rather than a robot. It's those moments I find the 'normal' people VERY weird and wonder how we actually get along.

Of course - you do get the occassional immature people you actually thought you had left back in primary or secondary school - people who find out that you are deaf and start covering their mouth in attempt to make your life harder - I just shake my head and walk off - what's the point of wasting my time when I could be doing something else.

Of course - it does make scary films harder to scare me considering the fact that I can't actually hear the haunting music - fun seeing everyone else jump and wondering just what I had missed - gotta say, I'm glad that I miss those part.


Have you ever had a moment you just want to switch the whole world off and bask in your peacefulness but find you can't because something always gets in the way? I can - all I have to do is switch my hearing aids off and close my eyes and the whole world just falls away.

Peace never gets the cherished moment that it deserves. My life is so busy with people coming in and out because they are so convinced that I'm missing out on my life by being deaf that they don't bother to ask my - How does my hearing affect me?

It gave me peace. It gave me understanding. I don't feel that I'm missing out on anything just because I'm deaf - I don't feel the need to resent the world just because I became deaf. I became deaf for a reason - maybe it has revealed itself or maybe it's still waiting to reveal itself but I don't care.

I love being deaf - I get excuses for when I miss something out in class or conversation but all together, I accept who I am because being deaf - I'm different.

Sure - there are hard moments of being deaf - when people forget that I'm deaf (and that happens ALOT!) because I act like a normal person and just get on with my life. I don't need sign languages because I lip read so they have a tendancy to turn their back on me while talking or just moving about.

But the thing is - If I know them so well - I can actually understand what they are saying despite their back is turned to me - always a shocker.

The one thing I hate being deaf is when you tell someone you are deaf - they can become apologic and say that they are sorry - why? If anyone who should be sorry - it should be me, for being stuck with a close minded person who belives that me being deaf is a fault of my own or my parents.

I'm just like a normal human being - I have worries, fears, problems. I have my own interests, favourites books, stories, films and games.

But at the same time I'm different because I prefer to be at peace and be content rather than go out like any normal person when I can have the comfort of my own home and make sure that my guests are comfortable as well.

Why pay to go out when you can get them free at home?


So next time you see a disabled person - don't pity them - wonder to yourself would you have the strength to go through what they go through each day and be thankful.


Quote of the day 'Just what is NORMAL?'

When I hear the word Kick Ass woman - I think of a woman who doesn't bow down to anyone, someone who can hold her own and takes nothing from anyone but the question is - are people losing interest in Kick Ass women and rather have a woman that would bow down to men and change themselves in order to suit the men's need?

Reason why I ask the question is when it comes to debating over a certain couple - people are more likely to go for a woman who needs to change in a relationship/ or a male that needs to change in a relationship in order to make it work out - why is this happening?

My couples - If you look at my very first post - you will see what couples I ship and you can notice a trend with the women - they're all kick assed woman who would rather kick the male's ass so hard that they couldn't sit down rather than one who would let a male walk all over her.

Couples:

Buffy/Angel - I loved this couple because they could let each other know what they really thought despite any judgement. Buffy was herself when it came to Angel and that what attracted me to the relationship - they could tell each other anything and Angel didn't care that Buffy could kick anyone ass, just as long as she was safe - it was fine with him.

Mulder/Scully - Scully had to be a kick assed woman due to her job but at the same time Mulder respected Scully for being a kick assed woman and knew not to mess with her. They could tell each other anything and knew that they wouldn't be judged. Mulder knew that Scully was a kick ass woman and loved it too.

Max/Liz - Liz loved Max before she knew that he was a king and she loved him after she found out that he a king and still loved him after he gave up the throne. Whenever Max needed someone - Liz was there for him. People can say that Liz was needy but she was actually a strong person who did things when they were needed.
She gave up her friends for Max, she gave up a lot of things for Max and still respected him. She didn't bow down to Max like Tess did and she made it clear to Max that she didn't need his permission for anything - that what attracted me to that relationship - the respect and the equality.

Harry/Hermione (Don't complain! I don't listen anyway.) Despite the fact that it wasn't made canon (And I have to tell you that I was SO happy that JK didn't make it canon because she screwed up Harry/Ginny's relationship - like the hell I could even believe THAT happening and she screwed up Ron/Hermione's relationship - fighting does NOT equal as love!) Harry and Hermione's friendship was the one thing that drew me back to the book - I didn't care about Voldemort or Ron or anyone else that was involved in Harry's life - JK didn't do a good job of making them imporatant.

Harry respected Hermione - he knew that she studied, he knew that she nagged because she cared about him - She was there for him when everyone else (Including Ron and Ginny) turned their back on him. Hermione was the ONE stable thing in Harry's life. It was the same as you turn it around.

I loved Harry/Hermione friendship because it proved that you can be soulmates without being together. They understood each other on a bond that no one else could touch. Harry never made fun of Hermione due to her trying to save the house elves or that she loves to studies - just like Ron did. Hermione changed in the seventh book - yes, she still stood by Harry but she had changed in order to make the relationship work and that was rubbish if you ask me.

Despite the fact that the books are over (Thank god if you ask me) Harry and Hermione will always have a special place in my heart because their friendship is one of a kind and I will always be on the look out for a friendship like that.

Cloud/Tifa(Final Fantasy) - I love their friendship with each other. I admit, the first time I saw them was in KH II and I loved how Tifa was the one to give Cloud light in order to beat Sephy (Can't spell his name and he does tend to act like a girl).

In the film - Tifa is the kick ass woman - she makes it clear that she will do whatever it takes to kick Cloud's butt to bring him out of a pity party (Aerith died - she is dead!) and give him a reason to fight to save the world again.

Cloud is the same - he likes the fact that Tifa is a kick ass woman and he left because he didn't want them to get hurt and see him dying!

Tifa doesn't expect him to be a hero - god, the guy is late half of the time when it comes to saving her *Rolls eyes* yet she still accepts him because in her eyes, he is already a hero despite everything else.

Tifa doesn't need to change to gain Cloud's attention - she already has it because Cloud respects her.

(Ps - before everyone goes on how Tifa is easy and Aerith isn't - If you play the game, Aerith throws herself at Cloud when you are nice to her but you have to work extra hard in order for Tifa to go out with you - think about that!)


House/Cuddy - Cuddy is a kick ass woman and she knows it. House respects the fact that she is his boss and she can overrule him anytime and he loves it. When they argue - they do it in a friendly/sexy banter that has one of them walking away with a smirk on their face and the other one looking after them with an impressed smirk on their face - that is a kind of relationship I want - the fact that I can argue with someone yet turn it into a sexual banter.

Before everyone go off on how it's the same as Ron/Hermione so how can I not support them - They are NOT like Ron/Hermione - they do not bring each other down to their level, bad mouth each other, degrade the other just for their own fun.

Cuddy isn't crying at the end of the arguement (Except the time when House was placed on drug restriction) and House isn't pleased with himself after he degrades her (Proven when he goes to her house and apologises for being an ass).

House and Cuddy know that the other one will be there for them when they are needed and House respects the fact that Cuddy is a woman and his boss - he doesn't make stupid comments on how she must have slept with certain people just to get her job - he knows that she fought for her job (Unlike a certain dononar that I won't mention *Glares at him*).

Cuddy respects House for who he is - an arragont self centred jerk who has no thoughts for anyone but himself and she loves it! Cameron tries to change House - she only cares about House because he is a cripple - when he wasn't using the cane - she didn't care about him, cripple again, she's all over him like a rash.


The one thing I love about those women is - THEY DON'T CHANGE! The men accept them for who they are and they like/love the way the women are!

Those women are my role models (Despite being characters) because they teach you that you should NEVER change for anyone. If a person can't aceept you for who you are, then ditch their ass and find someone else better.

I think that is one of the reason why Kick Ass Woman are not as popular as they used to be because women tend to lose self respect in them selves - men too but you always see a kick ass man on screen.

Kick Ass Women needs to come back and take over the screen - they are my role models and I think they would be a prefect role model for the future generations because they are unwilling to change themselves or lower themselves in order to gain a man.


I may be insane but it's better to be insane because it's the only way you can stay sane in the Insane world.

Every time I hear of a new horror film that comes out - the first thing that comes to my mind is - will it make me jump or will it make me confused?

You see, horror films these days are no longer the same horror films as they used to be. If you have a faint heart - then you are bound to jump and scream during weak horror films but if you're like me, watching all the horror films that you can get your hands on, you can easily get bored.

The reason I ask the question above is because - I'm now hooked on horror survival games - Project Zero/Fatal Frame/Zero - depending on where you live and it makes me jump because you are completely out of your depth. The creators have really put a lot of thoughts into these games to make it jump worthy.

I still catch myself jumping at the slightest movement and my heart just beats fast at anything.

When i watch a horror film - i expect it to draw me in. I WANT to hide behind my pillow/cushion. I WANT to squeal like a normal girl. I WANT to be terrified and cling onto someone but it doesn't happen anymore.

Before - you had the classics, the ones that are predictable yet they still make you jump despite you knowing it's going to happen. Hell, Alien still makes me jump at a particular scene even when I know it's going to happen.

You see - horror films, are they losing their appeal to become a horror film? And, is it just me? or do the films always seems to have a female leader who either kicks butts or runs about screaming?

For once, i want a woman who can walk into a haunted building and just punch/exorcist any demons that comes near her (Can't use Buffy - she the vampire slayer).

When I watch a horror film - I see something and in my mind eye - I can see a hand crawling out and just snagging an ankle or a ghost just popping out or anything like that but when they pass that moment, a hint of disappointment settles over me - the writers/directors - they are creating the predictable but they do NOT take up the chance to do it. That's the best thing of a horror film - you expect it to happen yet at the same time you don't expect it to happen therefore when it does happens - you jump!

I watched this film and I sat there on my bed for an HOUR and a HALF! just trying to figure out what the hell was going on - it wasn't till near the end, you get the explaination.

I hate films like that! I like a film where it gives you clues and hints during the whole film so you can build up an answer in your head and that what makes it even more scarier - you don't know if the answer is true or false and at the same time you are fighting between wanting to know or hiding yourself away so you don't find out if the answer is what you thought it was or even worse.

That's what makes a horror film - that what draws me in to being terrified.

Project Zero/Fatal Frame/Zero - you have a brief idea of what happened but you don't get the full answer - you have all those little clues and all those visions so that the answer slowly builds up in your head and it's horrible but at the same time, it pushes you on further - you WANT to know what happened to the people - you WANT to know WHY this is happening to them and you WANT to know how it ends.

That's what makes a good horror - of any type, books, games, films etcc. You are desperate to just to stop reading/playing/watching but at the same time, you just want to know what happened.

Are the writers/directors are losing their touch when it comes to horror films? Are they so caught up in making the film so complicated that they forgot that even the simple answer can just make a film complicated? That they forget a simple clue as a hint can strike fear into the hearts of the watchers?

My aunts/mother hates horror movies because they think it's too scary (Thanks to all the old ones they used to make) - i continually tell them that it's nothing like the old films because the directors/writers have missed out on their chances to make the film a horror film.

By making the film so complicated - no one will be able to relax just to watch it - they will be too busy trying to figure out what is going on and in the process they, they will be too confused to even focused on a film.

In my opinion - that is a very bad thing. A horror film is supposed to lure you into a false sense of safety before springing things on you. You are supposed to convince yourself that you are relaxed and safe but at the same time you don't feel safe because it feels like you are in the film - that you're the one who this is happening to.

When I want to watch a horror film - i want to sit back and gain a few clues here and there but I don't want to think - I want to feel safe but I know it can't happen till I know the answers to everything that happened and how the ending will go.

How many of us go to a horror film only to be disappointed? When I go to the movies - I don't see popcorn flying from fear. I don't see people jumping in their seats. I don't hear people screaming or squealing. I don't see people hiding their faces or clinging onto one another because the film is so scary.

All I see is people either being confused or bored.

The writers/directors needs to take a good look at their films then compare them to the older films - I know we have so many computers created films and all that but it doesn't make it scary - just unrealistic.

The whole point of a horror film is to place the thought into your head that IT could be real. That IT could happen to you. That ghosts COULD be real. That Monsters can be real. That people did/or doing those things. That's the whole point of a horror film - to make people believe that it COULD happen.

By making unrealistic films is just a waste of money and time to people who had high expectations of the films only to be let down.

If the writers/directors look back at the games and older films - they can see how those people took advantage of the predictable and used them on us.

We know that it's going to happen but at the same time we know it's not going to happen so when it does happen, you'll jump. Same as everything else.

For example - a girl is alone in a dark room and the eerie music picks up a beat - you know that something is going to happen but you don't know what. Your heart starts pounding, your palms starts getting sweaty. You're breathing heavily as fear courses through your veins when the girl turns around but nothing is there.

The torch reveals that there is nothing in the room with her and you start to relax and you chuckle slightly, scolding yourself for being silly when she spin around and there's someone right in front of her - you jump.

That's taking advantage of the predictable and it's the best feeling in the world.

But by not taking advantage of it - all you have is this jazzed up adrenaline going nowhere and making you annoyed and uncomfortable during the whole movie.

The real way to know if someone is terrified during the movie - is when they keep getting up to go to the toilet - your bladder can't hold up the weakness anymore. That happens when you play a survival horror game - it should happen when you watch a real horror film.

My conclusion - the world has forgotten what it's like to be scared. Yes, we have real life situation but once it happens - what happens? we have a habit of turning back to how our life used to be. They have forgotten that life may be dangerous - but there are other things out there who are just waiting to get to you.

My advice to all the directors who wishes to make a real horror film - drop the script you have and look at the old films.

Like Project Zero - it's based on a true story and when you play the game - you KNOW you don't want that to ever happen again in this lifetime but the possibilites of it being a true story - there is a chance it can come true again and it just scares you witless.

Directors/writers - take up the old route and start taking advantage of the predictable - you'll be grateful for it and us watchers will be scared out of our pants - again.

Okay, I'm the first one to admit it - I like Harry Potter and Hermione Granger together but since when is that a crime?

Ever since the 6th book came out, us Harry/Hermione fans have been expected to drop the ship and jump overboard, which I find insulting. Yes, I know that a lot of people truly believe that Harry and Ginny will get back together (Although some people are under the impression they are still together) and that Ron and Hermione are together! Facts: Ron and Hermione never got together. Harry and Ginny broke up - that's Canon while everyone wants to believe it or not.

I have to admit - I'm bored with the whole scene now, it's a wonder JK Rowling hasn't just chucked the last book into the fire and called it quits and just left us all wondering what's happening but she is too nice for that. I'm sick and tired of Ron/Hermione Harry/Ginny fans calling us delusional - if we want to be delusional then we will - there is no law on that unless someone decided to post it without our knowledge.

And to basically, rub it in some people faces - I like Ron! Yes, I find him an easy target to use as a villain in my story because of fourth year but I like him and I do not want dead! Ron, admittingly, is not one of my highest favorite characters but I still like him because he brings humor to the book and while we're on the topic of Ron obviously fancying Hermione - have you not notice a little trend here? Madam Rosemerta, third year, Blonde. Fleur, fourth year, Blonde. Lavender, 6th book, Blonde. Luna - Blonde and Ron admitted to Harry that Luna was beginning to grow on him. I support Ron and Luna because they just fit together. I can't explain it, beside Luna has a crush on Ron and I hardly think that JK Rowlings will practically dedicate a whole chapter in book 5 and her obvious crush on Ron just to cut her out of the picture - Luna and Neville are NOT going to get together - JK Rowlings put a big NO on that like she did Hermione/Draco.

And I admit - I hate Ginny but I don't hate Ginny because she got together with Harry - I hated her ever since 2nd book because of the diary - she isn't a muggle born nor she didn't grow up in the muggle world to be stupid about a diary that seemed to have a brain of it's own and she unwittingly put the whole school and the world in danger yet she still stole the book back from Harry - you tell me that isn't suspicious. Beside, I think she is sending out a wrong message, pretend you are over a boy and when he comes to you, jump in his arms - That rarely happens in real life.

Yes, I admit it too - I HATED Hermione in the 6th book, I hated the way how she slagged off Fleur, someone who did nothing except fall in love with a man who can see her for who she is and not what she is, with no problem. She was a real b*tch in that book. Yes, she is bossy and yes, she is a nag but that is who Hermione is and Harry respects that while you like it or not. Even Harry was surprise at Hermione's venom against Fleur.

But then again, we only have half of a book and the other half will be out soon - which I’m quite please about because it means we can get this whole damn shipping war over and done with and eventually shut everyone up.

I've actually gave up on getting Harry and Hermione together because I don't care anymore - I have found more shipping couples that I like better because there is less fighting over them and we can actually get on with our fan fictions without someone coming on and bashing us for shipping the couples.

Are we going over board with the shipping war? Yes, I do believe we are because people are bashing each other just because they can't handle the other belief in couples. Yes, admittingly, there are R/Hr and H/Hr fans who can get along together and are open to reasoning and don't see a reason to bash but for each of those, they are more shipping who wish to bash a couples just because it's not right in their mind.

R/Hr fans are jumping for joy and gloating that their ship is totally cannon when R/Hr haven't even got together yet but they expect H/Hr fans to drop their shipping and admit defeat - why are they so perstiant on us dropping our ship? Is it really due to that R/Hr could be cannon or is it due to the fact that the door for H/Hr is wide open and it could go that way?

Now, you may have notice that I haven't even bothered to explain why Harry/Hermione could work together or why Ron/Hermione don't work together but I’m not going to bother because that's not my point here.

My point is, we all have a right of freedom to believe in what we want to believe in and no one has a right to try and take that way - it's like church, some people believe in Jewish while others are Catholics - my point is, if we can accept that people have different views on religion then why can we accept that people have different shipping tastes?

Think about it.