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HELP!!!!!

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 20:49:24 GMT

I'm currently writing smutty one shots for Harry Potter called 'Candy Shop' and I'm currently writing one about Ginny but as I try and write it sexy - Bonnie comes in and acts all cute which makes it very difficult to write her as sexy.

Does anyone have an idea of a person I could use in place for Ginny for sexy? Bonnie is cute, not sexy so I really really really need your help!

I kept looking toward Linsday Lohan or Isla Fisher but I keep thinking they're a little older than what I was looking for.

If you can think of someone to take over Bonnie's place as Ginny in my story, just leave a name and I'll look it up in google.

Other thing - Penelope - I need to know if we actually know what she looks like in the book? I remember Ginny talking about in her in the second book but I don't remember if Harry had actually seen her, Description of what she looks like, hair colour/eye colour would be extremely helpful because for some reason I keep thinking she is either a blonde or a red-head.

Let me know if you know anything!

Thanks again!

Stories Alert

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 23:12:01 GMT

To those who are waiting a new part on Love Bites - I am SO sorry! College, illness and games overtook my life!

In college, I had projects and essays to do. I have two exams coming up but thankfully they are just written ones so they'll be easy and I'll just have my case studies to do - Can't wait.

Illness - Ear Infections, strange like cold/flu and a typewriter decided that the back of my head looked like a fun trampoline and hit me, needless to say I was stuck with a stiff neck and got sent home from College twice before I got the message and took the week off but unfortunately I couldn't work as much as I would have preferred too.

Games - I had the sudden obsession to start playing Prince of Persia and Eternal Sonata for some reason and that included me video-taping it to get the cuts scenes (but, as I am unlucky, people kept walking in when I was taping so I had to shoo them back out).

Anyway, to make up for the fact that I have been a very, very bad author, I have written two Eternal Sonata one-shots and one Prince of Persia. I have others that I am working on but decided to post these three ahead of time. I hope you enjoy it!

ETERNAL SONATA:

Because of You:
Claves/Jazz
Mature/Adult
link: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5525507/1/Because_of_You

Dirty Little Secret:
Fugue/Rondo
Mature/Adult
link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5525508/1/Dirty_Little_Secret

PRINCE OF PERSIA

Run Around:
Prince/Elika
Mature
link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5525511/1/Run_Around

UP-COMING STORIES

Final Fantasy - Fire and Ice - Cloud/Tifa
Pokemon - Playing with Fire - Ash/Dawn
Star Ocean - Blurring the Line - Edge/Reimi
Stargate Atlantis - Long Hot Summer - John/Elizabeth
The Dresden Files - The Dreams we Have - Harry/Connie (Murphy)

Multi - Candy Shop - Harry Potter with multiply pairings.

Prince of Persia + Stargate Atlantis = Inspiration?

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 00:12:29 GMT

Yes, I'm probably crazy for thinking this but right now, it's 00.55 am over here so I sleep deprived at the moment and annoyed that my MSN isn't working but this has been annoying me for ages.

Just recently, I became obsessed with Stargate Atlantis - or obsessed with John/Elizabeth (don't ask me why, I just suddenly got the need to watch/read about them again for some reason.

And I remembered Prince of Persia that I stood in the line at a very busy shop, at Christmas time, with the cold and spent my mother's £40 on the flipping game (which I can now get for £9.99) for my little sister and it hit me like lighting!

Has anyone but me have noticed how much alike Elizabeth/Elika Prince/John are? I mean, seriously! Prince is a guy who happened to walk in at the wrong moment/wrong time (or right time depending on how you see it) while John is a guy who just happened to sit on the chair at the wrong time.

Elizabeth/Elika are very persuasive women who ropes Prince/John into following them to the point they have no choice but to do so because it's the only way to save them.

Elizabeth/Elika are similar in looks/actions and movements. Both of them take the time to explain the situation yet they can't say 'no' to Prince/John.

Prince/John are trouble magnet - trouble is drawn to them which is how they got involved in the situations in the first place. Even John warned Elizabeth that he would bring trouble.

Elizabeth/Elika are the ones who keeps saving John/Prince's ass whenever they get into a sticky situation and they are the ones who makes the ultimate sacrifice in the end. Elizabeth for Atlantis, Elika for her home.

Prince and John fight their way to get them back (I know that there is a sequel for Prince of Persia but I have no idea how to get it!) Prince makes the ultimate sacrifice for Elika, he made a bargain with the devil to bring her back but he had already had a plan in mind how to stop the evil completely without Elika while John fought and held on hope that Elizabeth was still alive but eventfully had to give up because the Replicators kept saying she was dead. (if given the choice, John would have probably made a bargain with the devil to bring her back).

Of course, I could be imagine it - people say I imagine a lot of things but hey, I'm weird, live with it.

Now, talking and thinking about this makes me want to play the game again but unfortunately, it won't work (meaning, I get to buy two of the same game for £20, not a bad price, huh?)

Let me know if you feel the same, have more identical or objections. I have an open mind! (when I'm not half a sleep of course).

My Shippings

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 19:54:43 GMT

I'm SO depressed, I just realised that a majority of my shipping are either dead ends, not popular or the series has already ended! How sad is that? *pouts* but at least I still have fanfictions to keep my happy, although I need to hunt high and low (if my teachers ever found out how much energy I put into finding fanfictions, they would kneel over in shock!)

Okay - let me count the shippings!

Angel/Buffy

Angel/Buffy (OTP)
Spike/Drusilla
Spike/Tara
Spike/Fred (OTP)

Bullet Witch (Game)

Alicia/Maxwell

CSI (ALL)

Grissom/Catherine
Mac/Stella (Still holding out hope!)
Calleigh/Ryan

Dead or Alive (Game)

Kasumi/Ryu (OTP)
Kasumi/Leifang

Devil May Cry (Game)

Kyrie/Nero
Dante/Trish

Eternal Sonata (Game)

Allegretto/Polka
Jazz/Claves
Beat/March

Firefly/Serenity

Mal/River (OTP)
Inara/Jayne
Simon/Kaylee

Fast and Furious (Film)

Brian/Mia (OTP)

Final Fantasy

Cloud/Tifa (VII) (OTP)
Zack/Aerith (VII)
Leon/Rinoa (VIII)
Snow/Lighting (13)

Grey's Anatomy

Mark/Lexie (OTP)
Izzie/George

Harry Potter

Harry/Hermione (OTP)
Draco/Luna (OTP)
Ron/Cho
Ginny/Anyone

Infinite Undiscovery (Game)

Aya/Capell
Michelle/Sigmund
Michelle/Edward
Edward/Faina

Kingdom Hearts

Sora/Olette
Sora/Kairi
Sora/Ariel
Roxas/Namine

Merlin

Merlin/Morgana
Merlin/Nimueh (ever since I read this amazing one shot! Let me know if you want to read it!)
Arthur/Gwen

Mentalist

Jane/Van Pelt (I know, I'm weird that way)
Jane/Libson

NCIS

Tony/Kate
Gibbs/Jenny

Primeval

Claudia/Nick
Abby/Steven
Sarah/Becker

Pokemon

Ash/Dawn (OTP)
Kate/Kellyn (Pokemon Ranger)
Lunick/Solana (Pokemon Ranger)
May/Brendan

Prince of Persia

Prince/Elika

Point Pleasant

Christina/Jesse

Roswell

Max/Liz (OTP)
Alex/Tess
Michael/Anyone
Maria/Anyone
Isabel/Anyone
Kyle/Anyone

Resident Evil (Films/games)

Billy/Rebecca
Alice/Carlos
Mikey/K-Mart

Star Ocean

Edge/Reimi
Muyria/Arumat
Muyria/Lucien
Lymle/Faize

Stargate (All)

Sam/Jack (SG1)
John/Elizabeth (SGA) - Phebus/Thalen
Teyla/Ronon (SGA)
Teyla/Lorne (SGA)
Scott/Chloe (SGU)

Smallville

Clark/Lois
Chloe/Oliver
Chloe/Jimmy

X-Files

Mulder/Scully

Zelda

Link/Malon (OOT)

Therapy good?

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 12:31:31 GMT

Here we go, If you can't talk annoymously on the net, then you can't talk to a therapist (is that the way how it goes?)

I went to see the doctor and she thinks I'm depressed. She is referring me to a counsellor to make sure the digonist is correct but who knows these days.

A lot of people remark that I never change but is that true? When I was younger, I used to go out and play with my friends but come secondary school and it was a shock to the system that I don't think I actually got over it. I just retreated, perferring to stay in the house rather than going out because all my friends seem to do was meet up with a bunch of people and get drunk. What was the point in that?

Secondary school is the school that makes or break you and to be honest, I think it broke me. I started drifting away from people because they just seem to believe things about me without asking and stab me in the back with it. But when it's revealed that it was never true, they turn around and say they are 'sorry'. Sorry is just a word, it may be the hardest word but its just a word. It means nothing to the scars that they left behind because it doesn't heal.

I though I knew the people but they changed and I began to realise I don't think these people knew me at all. They could claim that they know me better than anyone but I don't think anyone does. Whenever a stranger says something about you, you brush it off but when a friend agrees with that stranger, it cuts to the bone and you begin to wonder just how do they see you?

I was one of those girls who never cared about what people thought of her because they don't matter. What you think of yourself is the only thing that matters. They don't know you but you know yourself. I just wanted everyone to like me but I knew that I couldn't please everybody, especially when some people just seem to hate me on sight. Weird, I know but I dealt with it. There was nothing else I could do. I couldn't very well make someone like me although I have always been curious about it.

I think the one that that pushed me over the edge and I knew that I had to see a counsellor was when my friend didn't understand me. It is a crime to want to know as much as I can about sex? I mean, I have books on sharks, dogs, cats, anatomy and phisology, bones and murders. Does that mean I want a shark roaming about in my bath? Do I want to become a murderer? Does wanting to read about Sex mean I'm desperate for sex? I didn't know that it did and it makes me wonder if I have been born into the wrong time? Should I have been born earlier or way later in the future where the socity doesn't judge you on what you read, write, walk, talk or dress?

All I did was ask her if she could read a smutty one shot that I was planning on writing. I just wanted her opinion on the story, that was all but all she said was 'I have a very sastifying sex life with my boyfriend' - what? I don't give a damn about her sex life, if she has one, then that's great, if she doesn't then that's okay but where does that come into answering my question 'will you read this one-shot?' Maybe I'm missing the obvious, that its right there pratically screaming at me but why it is so hard to answer a simple question with a simple answer - yes or no.

I kept asking her if she could just read the story, I mean, if she doesn't want to read it, then all she had to do was say so but she just kept saying her and her boyfriend has a sastifying sex life and that I'm writing about sex, reading about sex and asking questions about sex meant that I was desperate to have sex. I'm a curious person, when I learn about something, I want to learn as much as I can about it. I'm the same with everything since I was younger so why is wanting to learn about Sex such a crime or am I really such a freak? is it something I shouldn't be doing? I don't really know my bounderies because my family had always wanted me to learn as much stuff as I can because I'm deaf.

She even went on to say that I put sex on a pedstal but I know that my first time is going to hurt and it probably be rubbish and that the first few months, it will also be rubbish but come on! Give me some credit, I may have not had sex but I know that it takes time to get into a rythm sharing your body with someone else. It's not as if I will become a sex goddness the first night I have sex. I mean, If it was really desperate to have sex, wouldn't I have slept with those two guys I planned on meeting up with having sex but backed out at the last minute when I asked myself what the hell was I doing?

I feel like a freak when it comes to other people because I never know what their boundaries are. My parents and teachers have always encouraged me to ask questions about anything because I had to get comfortable with asking for help due to my hearing but the way people are these days, I wonder if I'm overstepping boundaries without realising it.

The one thing that annoys me the most is this guy. He kept asking me out and I kept saying no because I'm not interested in him in that way. He talked on the msn with my sister and told her that I'm afraid to date him because I think, after he gets what he wants, he'll dump me. Why can't people comprehend that I am not interested in them sexually. That I'm not remotely attracted to them. Of course, it must be weird to have a 22 year old woman without any hormones really. I mean, yeah, I think some guys are hot but not enough to actually fantasise about them or want to date them.

I am happy being single yet people never understands that. My sister keeps telling me to go out with my friends and find a boyfriend but how do you tell your sister that all the friends you have made ends up stabbing you in the back and trying to force you into doing things you don't wanna do? How do you tell your sister that the girls are more concerned about keeping their boyfriends happy and the guys just want to pressure you into their bed with them so they can brag they were the first to break me?

Of course, my sister is not blameless, she wants me to eat so I can become fat and make her look better! What sort of sister does that to her own flesh and blood? Yes, we have fights but I would never say that to her. She has no regard for my health and she wants me to date so I wouldn't make her look so weird. Maybe if she slowed down dating, she would understand she doesn't need a man to make her happy. If you are not happy by yourself, how do you expect to be happy with someone else? Isn't it better to know yourself first and be happy then introduce someone else to the equation?

I feel like I'm stuck, that everyone else around me is moving at fast pace and I'm standing still in the middle with nowhere to turn or look. Every road I walk ends up being a dead end and I'm right back at the beginning trying to fight a battle that I seem to be losing. I'm tired and just want to give up but I know I shouldn't give up.

I fantasise about cutting, I haven't done it because a loud voice inside of me tells me that It's not the way to go, I won't feel any better about myself but that voice is getting quieter each day and I'm worried that one day, I will do something I wouldn't normally do. And the worse thing is, I can't talk to anyone about this because they would never understand, even if I did try to talk, they wouldn't listen as I'm a girl who should be seen and heard, just someone who shouldn't be listened to.

If they are true friend, they would understand, wouldn't they? Real friends don't pressurise you into sleeping with them or changing yourself to meet their needs or fix their problems for them but ignore you when you ask for help or am I looking at this all the wrong way? Is it me that needs to change? I don't know any more and I hope that one day, I will get the answers I seek but right now, that time isn't now and I can only hope that I can hold on a little bit longer despite wanting to hide away from the world and deal with myself rather than dealing with everyone else problems because that seems like the only reason I'm here for.

I'm just a girl who likes to write because they are no rules and no boundaries. There, people can only judge you by what you write and what you ship. They do not know me and I do not know them and that gives me a sense of peace. But I'm also a girl who is probably destined not to have a best friend because I'm one of the type who keeps falling for the wrong friend.

Cherish every moment you have with someone who truly knows and understands you because right now, that seems like a very rare thing to me.

My dream? To become an author but I never know if I feel I'm good enough to introduce my own realities to the world. Even if I did, who would even publish me?

The Breaks We Need

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 21:49:26 GMT

Isn't it funny when you find yourself looking forward to the days you can stay up late without worrying about the next day? It's those days we all look forward to but why? For relaxation? For a break from life? To catch up on things you have been neglecting?

It never matters to me what day it is, as long I don't have anywhere to go the next day, I spend my time catching up on everything and relaxing. It's nice to actually stop and just stare out at whatever view you have. Raindrops falling down the windows, the ocean, the sunset/sunrise, snow falling or even just a plain day where it feels like you are at a standstill yet the world keeps on moving.

It makes you feel you could just disappear and the world wouldn't notice. It would just keep on moving, regardless of one less person to help the day move faster. It's those moments you could find solace in. The world doesn't depends on you, everyone else who usually depends on you gives you a break from their questions and problems. They don't need you yet you don't find yourself disappointed or upset. You feel...relieved, because the day is all about you, nobody else.

We all say we are taking a day off but how many of us actually do take the day off? I mean, switching your phone off, not answering e-mails. Leaving the dishes/washing until the next day. Actually sitting back on the couch, drinking good wine/beer and reading a good book or just watching a film or just listening to music.

We try to give ourselves the break we need but we never actually do get the chance. It just seems like everyone knows you want a day off and they can't let you have one because they need you to solve a problem for them or to help them or just give them an ear. When do we get the day to ourselves to unwind and give us the time to take care of ourselves? We are so busy with work, college, school, university, children, lovers and such that we never actually take a step back and say 'I need a day off and on my day off, it means a day off.'

How many times have to tried to unwind only for the phone to ring or a message to pop up in the e-mail/phone by someone claiming they need your help/input or they need you to do something. I find that when I look forward to my day off, it means I get the chance to unwind and take care of myself.

If you really want to take care of yourself but can't afford a spa or treatment, no worries. Doing what you like best is the best way to relax. Me...I like to read, watch dvds and write. This helps me to get in touch with my brain and just relax. By writing, I'm letting loose of my frustration and putting into a story where someone else can solve the problem for me. By reading or watching a dvd, I let my brain switch off and just go into whatever fantasy the world is trying to pull me in.

Fantasies are what the world started on and it's probably what the worlds in on. We all like to believe in fairy tales and even though they do happen, we just never seem to reach that happy ending...of course, there are no happy endings, not until you reach your end of time and look back with a smile and say that you did everything you never thought you could do and be happy.

Fairy tales always miss out in the hardest part. They show us how to get our happy ending but they never show us the aftermath of that happy endings. People have arguments, break up, find that life isn't fair but if we persist and allow ourselves time to unwind, we could actually find a solution to our problems without drastic methods.

We all say that we would do something when we mean that we probably wouldn't do it so it's time to change it. Do something that you really want to do despite what other people think. You want a break, cut yourself off from your friends and family and inform them they are not allowed to contact you unless it an serious situation (ie, someone is dying, breathing their last breath and would like to tell you something). If they can not do that for you, then question why do you do this when you do not get what you want in return.

Remember...you're the one who makes your happy ending. Always follow your heart, no matter where it takes you because in the end...it's worth it because you realize that you would have never gotten there without your friends, family and courage.

Thought of the day: If time were to stop, would the world still keep moving?

Quote: Why should I care what you think?

Answer: Because you know yourself better than anyone else and they can think whatever they like...you know the answer and you don't have to justify yourself to anyone.

Stories Update part 2

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 18:39:53 GMT

Decided to give you all the updates of the stories I'm currently working on but have not posted!

Dead or Alive -

No Title (At moment)

Kasumi/Ryu

Teen/Mature/Adult

Kasumi, still on the run from her clan, faints half dead. Joe, under a promise, takes Kasumi home where he offers her a choice and Ryu is faced with his desire for the runaway once more...

Status: Working on but not posted!

Final Fantasy VII -

The Insanity of a Nightmare

Cloud/Tifa Aerith/Zack (Mention only)

Mature/Adult

Cloud and Zack were not the only ones taken by Hojo. Tifa was too. Now the boys must find a way to break free but things are going to get a lot more complicated when Hojo starts his new experiment and it includes Cloud and Tifa giving him a new son to make up for Sephiroth...will they get out?

Status - Working on but not Posted!

Harry Potter -

Love Bites

Harry/Hermione Draco/Luna surprise/suprise

Mature/Adult

There was another reason why Harry avoided Hermione in third year and that reason has now come to light as Harry must make a choice regarding his future with Voldemort.

Will he win the war or will he have to do the one thing he loath more than anything?

Slight crossover with Mark/Lexie from Grey's Anatomy - Lexie, herself and Mark with dark hair.

Status - Works in Progress and Posted over fanfiction.net, Portkey & Adult fanfiction.

Pokemon -

Mysterious Girl

Ash/Dawn others included

Ash and Dawn grew up together and now they are on a school trip when Delia and Oak finds something out that can put Dawn's life in danger while Ash begins to realise that there are more to Dawn, and himself, as he seeks to solve the mysteries that is threatening to overtake their lives.

Add in hunters, collectors, and trainers are now hunting for the new Pokemom that is rumoured to control all other Pokemon...will they survive?

Status: Will be worked on when Birthday Make-Up is finished!

Star Ocean -

Shower Accident

Edge/Reimi

Mature/Adult

Edge and Reimi ends up in the shower together by accident and it makes them re-evalutes their relationship

Status - giving me a headache - Once I've figured out how it's going to start - It should be easy. *Cross fingers*

Birthday Make Up

Edge/Reimi

Teen/Slight Mature

Reimi's birthday is round the corner, Edge is on a ship checking out new planets...how is he going to make up for the year before?

Status - Working on but not Posted!

Zelda

The Love of Twilight

Malon/Link

Teen/Mature/Adult

Link did go to Hyrule rather than the twilight taking over and meet an interesting farm girl but as the twilight takes over, Link begins to realise that Malon hold the answers to his past and he must keep her safe at all cost...

Status: Working on but not posted!

Crossover -

The Games we Play

Max/Liz (Roswell)
Mark/Lexie (Grey's Anatomy)
Liz/Lexie (Friendship/Sexual)

Teen/Mature/Adult

Liz and Lexie are best friends with occasional benefits when Lexie arrives at Seattle Grace Hospital and Liz works in a popular cafe called Crashdown and both of them meet interesting men...Mark Sloan and Max Evans.

Add in new found sisters, jealous people, adoptived brothers and meddlesome friends...all four begin to realise that there is a game to be played and the winners takes all...

Let the games begin

Status: Working on but Not Posted!

The stories that are being worked on but not posted means I will not post them unless I have a majority of it finished so this way I can guarantee that it will be finished and have regular updates! I will change them when I DO post the stories and paste links!

2 One Shots - Star Ocean: the Last Hope

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 19:20:21 GMT

Title: Nappy Time

hints of Edge/Reimi Faize/Lymle with a good dose of Edge/Lymle friendship.

Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5264092/1/Nappy_Time

Title: Room Arrangement

Edge/Reimi dominates. Hints of Faize/Lymle

Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5267196/1/Room_Arrangement

Here! - Sorta Shrugs

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 21:40:32 GMT

Yes, I know that most of you will probably have thought I’ve disappeared off the face of the earth – my parents did due to the milk still being in the fridge (I tend to drink A LOT of milk).

I get obsess with games – I got two new games at the beginning of the summer, Another Code: R and Star Ocean: The Last Hope. I have finished Another Code: R and nearly finished with my sorta first play-through with Star Ocean.

I have FINALLY managed to get past that stupid section in Zelda the Twilight Princess. The part where you have to protect the carriage from the stupid bomb ass bird – I managed to blow the bloody bird up and move on the next stage – finally. See, if I prevail at something, I will eventfully win *Grins*

For Star Ocean: The Last Hope – I started it three times. The first time, I got stuck because I didn’t charge up my Thunder rings before heading forward *rolls eyes*. The second time, I was past the boss of the above but I got my walkthrough and found out that you get secret endings therefore you need to the private events in certain order which led me to creating a new gamer card and starting the game from scratch but I’m not getting one of the private events that I had been looking forward too which means that another scene that I was told to trigger had stopped it from happening *rolls eyes*.

After I’ve finished that play-through – nearly at the last boss! I will be doing the game once more in order to tape the cut-scenes and such so I can watch it anytime I want without having to get sucked in the game.

And in reply to my last message – no I did not get to celebrate the end of College with Season 6 of Charmed so I could get my Drew Fuller fill. Amazon had it a ridiculous price of £56 while the two other stores didn’t have them in stock, which meant I had to wait until they had brought it in stock but thankfully – as I prevailed – Amazon finally brought the price down to £13 so it meant I could get it! Finally got the DVD today and my Drew Fuller goodness - he's just hot!

My plans for my birthday (Which is the tenth of July – Friday in the UK) – buy more games – I want to get Star Ocean: The Last Hope limited edition and Animal Crossing: Let’s go to the City. I’m supposed to get perfume – Rock ‘n Dreams but I don’t think it is out at the moment as I can’t find it anywhere and I’m getting a cake! (Me to You - I love this bear!)

Best news? NO Party – Finally! Ever since I was one years old, I had been having a party every fricking year when last year, I finally confronted my mother and informed her that since I was turning 22, there was no reason to celebrate my birthday with a party because it’s not a mile-stone. She finally relented (Thankfully) and I’m getting off scot free *Whoo hoo!*

Anyway – I have gotten off track, I only meant to come here to inform you the updates of my stories –bear in mind, the stories below are in forum alphabetical order – not posting order so if you want to read a story, you will need to wait until I have completed the chapter/story and posted it.

* Please refer to top!

Two More Prompts

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 19:11:03 GMT

Hey everyone - got two new prompts written - let me know what you thought if you want!

#41 - Strawberries - Capell and Aya alone... M for certain situations
Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/5/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

#93 - Ponder - Capell ponders about some things
Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/6/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

And on to more news - by this Friday I will have finished my course at college - Yay! and I shall be celebrating with a brand new dvd box set of Charmed season 7 just so I can drool over Drew Fuller (He's hot!) but that is actually my favourite season out of the series - seems like I have a lot.

With free time on my hands, I'll be free to write, babysit and annoy my family for the summer - I don't have anywhere to be (Thankfully) and I have nothing to do (Thankfully).

So you might be seeing a lot of me on LJ, you might not but whatever the case may be - over the weekend - I come with a sign that says 'disturb me at your own risk' and trust me, I'm handy when it comes to throwing things when I need to be.

I hope you all are counting down the days the summer holidays are almost here!

My advice for the end - Make sure you have something to celebrate with!
My Quote for today - Just because everyone else's doing it, doesn't mean you can't have your own brain.

I'm out, take care of yourselves and later!
XOXO

2 more Prompt Fics

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 17:05:13 GMT

I just wanted to let you all know I've posted another 2 prompt fics.

#17 - Soup - Capell wonders about Sigmund and Seraphina's love for soup. Rated M for conversation *Snickers*
Link:www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/3/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

#85 - Umbrella - Capell needs a solution...
Link:www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/3/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

New Table!

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 21:07:41 GMT

Alright - I wanted to give you all heads up for my First Prompt Table (See how proud I am of it? *Grins insanely before shaking head*). I still can't believe that I have done one but I decided what the heck. This may be my first one but I'm hoping it won't be my last one so let me know what you all think.

My First One is set in Infinite Undiscovery forum (If you have never played it and have a 360 - GET IT! Ignore all the stupid critics - they all rave about games that I find are completely stupid and a waste of my time yet they complain about this game and I found it quite entertaining - yes, there are flaws to the game but I dare you all to name ONE game that does NOT have a flaw!)

Characters who will be involved - Just about everyone *Rolls eyes* but to refresh your memories if you have played the game but forgotten it or that there were too many people to remember (34 - main and minor - that I counted).

Characters:

Capell, Aya, Rico, Rucha, Edward, Eugene, Sigmund, Michelle, Gustav, Dominica, Savio, Balbagan, Touma, Komachi, Genma, Kiriya, Vic, Kristofer, Seraphina, Leonid, Saranda, Faina, Queen Svala, and Emir Sharukh. Others may be mentioned at one point or another.

Couples:

Aya/Capell are the predominate couple because I love this couple the best.

There will be other couples like Sigmund/Michelle, Leonid/Saranda, and possibly one sided Faina/Capell (Apologies to who likes this couple).

Rating:

Will go up to Mature for sexual situation - it will be hinted/written but not to the point where its graphically written. If the chapter contains mature content, it will have a 'M' in the introduction part so if you are underage yet ignored my warning and went ahead, I will not be held responsible because you have been caught - you are on your own there.

Other than that, I hope you will like it and let me know what you think. I will be writing my own point of view of the stories/situations and I am interested in hearing your views so don't be shy, just let me know either way.

I have done two prompts already so either click on the links that are shown after this sentence.

Links:
#91 - Deaths - Capell thinks back on everything
Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/1/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

#1 - Red - Red always means something to someone
Link: www.fanfiction.net/s/5104543/2/Paws_for_Thoughts_IU

Notes for the table:

Italic/bold - I have written a chapter for that prompt.
Red - Mature rating
Orange - Set after the game
Blue - Set during the game
Purple - AU during the game
If there are different colours of above in one - means they are involved!

Table:

Paws for Thoughts – IU

Prompts

Colours

1) *Red*	5) Purple	9) Yellow
2) Blue	6) Green	10) Orange
3) Black	7) Silver	11) Gold
4) Pink	8) White	12) Brown

Food/Juice

13) Milk	19) Rabbit	25) Rice	31) Salt	37) Apples
14) Juice	20) Fox	26) Crab	32) C. Powder	38) Lemons
15) Tea	21) Chicken	27) Mushroom	33) Butter	39) Melons
16) Wine	22) Dragon	28) Peppers	34) Oil	40) Tomatoes
17) Soup	23) Prehistoric	29) Honey	35) Vegetables	41) Strawberry
18) Bread	24) Fish	30) Syrup	36) R. Jelly	42) Eggs

Creatures

43) Bugs	46) Undead	49) Snakes	52) Mimics
44) Lizards	47) Wolves	50) Gigas	53) Gluttons
45) Bears	48) Harpies	51) Birds	54) Centipedes

Weapons* based on Characters

55) Swords	59) Staffs	63) Great swords
56) Bows	60) Grimoires	64) Dual Daggers
57) Batons	61) Drums	65) Axes
58) Katana	62) Daggers	66) Claws

Personal Skills* based on Characters

67) Capell	73) Eugene	79) Vic
68) Aya	74) Balbagan	80) Touma
69) Rico	75) Michelle	81) Komachi
70) Rucha	76) Savio	82) Kiriya
71) Edward	77) Gustav	83) Kristofer
72) Sigmund	78) Dominica	84) Seraphina

Others

85) Umbrella	89) Flute	93) Orders	97) Secrets
86) Gustav	90) Ponder	94) Errand Boy	98) Camping
87) Clothing	91) *Deaths*	95) Treasure Hunters	99) Orders of Chain
88) Slips	92) Bathing	96) Cupid	100) First Meetings

Oh - and if you have a prompt you would like to add in - just let me know what kind it is and where you think it will fit and I will try my best to write it out. Or, if you want to give the prompt table a try - let me know first hand so I know that other people are doing the prompts otherwise I will get confused.

News

Thu, 21 May 2009 20:02:46 GMT

Do you ever have those days you just feel like screaming cause everything seem to be pushing you under their weight? Its time like this I wish I could just pack up a bag, grab a flight and head somewhere no one knows so they can't find me - will it happen? Only if I suddenly lose my memory, stranded somewhere.

I have a presensation coming up and all I want to do is run for the hills. I hate Presensations. I don't even see why we need them in Holistic Therapies! My teacher says our group needs to work like a team - kinda hard to do that when one refuses to listen but hey - that's life, right?

Four or so weeks until the summer holidays and I haven't even done my assessment needed to pass the course - why? Because the Board is balking due to the fact I'm deaf. Maybe if they actually created a proper consulation sheet, I wouldn't have to go to all the trouble of having to create one that is suitable for me and the client...and I've accepted to go back the following year - Have I lost my mind? or just plain crazy?

Stories/Fanfiction - don't even get me started. I'm so stressed out with everything else that my stories have taken a backburner (Sorry to those who are reading 'Love Bites' I can try all I want, I just can't seem to sit down long enough to actually put the story into words - really annoying - not to mention I have all these other ideas but they have to wait until 'Love Bites' is finished before I can concentrate on them - which is a shame because I have a really good idea for a Final Fantasy VII story (Cloud/Tifa Aerith/Zack - before everyone gets too excited) and I would love to get a head start on it.

Talking about Final Fantasy VII - I hope you all know that Advent Children Complete should be hitting the UK shops July the 13th (Monday - not a friday so those who are supersitious doesn't need to worry) - the best news? It's only available on Blue-Ray - which is just fantastic cause it means for me to watch those kick ass scene of where Tifa actually beat up those skeleton-wolf like creature than just covering Denzel, Cloud saving Denzel by throwing a sword, Sephrioth lifting Cloud into the air with his sword (Crisis Core similarities?) and Zack Fair (I live in denial that he dies in the game - refuse to go past getting Cloud out of the Mako tube - I hope those jerks are kicking themselves for killing off one of the best characters ever!) to have more screen time - I have to buy a fricking Blue-Ray DVD.

Now don't fret - I ALWAYS have a plan for something, it wouldn't do if something goes wrong and I don't have a back up. As it's nearly my birthday, I am trying to convince my mother into letting me pay for half of it or just pay it off over time with a card...cross your fingers and hope that I get it - happy me means a happier world! (I wish)

So...what do I do to counter my frustration? Why, play games of course. What could be better than bashing enemies up on TV and venting my frustration (It has to better than going out and actually beating people up - don't think my family would be too impress with me) but unfortnately I'm playing Infinite Undiscovery and it has gotten me hooked again! I'm looking for fanfictions with Aya/Capell - this is my fave couple out of them all and they SO had sex - I don't care what people say, it's 16+ so sexual themes are involved - stated plenty of time during the game with Capell freaking out over Rusha knowing something she shouldn't, Tomua being Naive and Capell apparently sneaking out to watch Aya bathing, said by Komachi.

Tsk, tsk Capell, that'll teach you to spy on someone while a nightwhisper is watching you. Beside - does any guy actually act completely and utterly goofy over a kiss or a hug? Nope - that guy had 'I just had sex' glow all over him. Beside, Aya was shy as she walked past Domnica - she's been a bad girl...depending on who you ask.

Gotta get mind back on track! Jeez!

Just to let you all know, I have new One True Pairings!

Mark/Lexie - Grey's Anatomy - love them or hate them (but give vaild reasons rather than the rubbish ones I've been hearing lately) Mer/Derek is getting boring and I'm beginning to hate Derek. I really hate Alex - he says he loves Izzy but can't tell something is going on with her - George could tell for crying out loud! George - I never liked him and Lexie, I always thought Lexie was too good for him. Lexie and Mark have a special relationship - he fought to keep her - he fought Derek for her! That says more about Mark than anything else does.

Spike/Fred - Angel - they adore each other and they flirted (science but flirty) Spike and Fred are good for each other! I never really liked the whole Buffy/Spike thing - she used him whenever she wanted to feel better, she was hell bent on keeping their relationship a secret but when it comes to the crunch, she runs like usual - frankly, I thought she became more of bitch when Angel left. Wesley - man, I hate that guy - he wasn't worthy of Fred and do not get me started on Gunn.

Draco/Luna - Harry Potter - I know, weird couple but I feel Draco was underused and wasted (JK needs to work a little bit more on her characters) and Luna was one of my fave - which is why the fifth book is my fave other than Harry and Hermione's brilliantly close relationship - and I was so disappointed that she had been practically cut out of the story - what was the whole point of writing a chapter about her only to cut her out? Yes, I used to like Ron/Luna but over time - especially seventh book when the prat left AGAIN, I felt Luna deserves someone way better - don't like that Hermione ended up with Ron and Harry ended up with Ginny - more on that later, but I dealt - as far as I'm concern, the films are a waste, according to the reviewers.

Rant beginning....

Okay - sue me but I HATE it when the hero ends up with the damsel in distress - I perfer a woman with a kick ass backbone-like-steel. Ginny was a complete and utter damsel in distress that I was half expecting her to be locked away in Hogwarts just waiting to drop her hair down for Harry to climb (Note: There is a reason why Cinderella is my fave disney movie out of the lot).

Ron - I felt he should have died, everything was built up for that and I was extrememly disappointed (Then again, what's new?) I do not care what Ron worshipping fans says - He turned his back on Harry TWICE - in real life, he would have had his ass handed to him and kicked out of their lives - you don't turn your back on your friends when they need you the most. I don't care that he missed his family or couldn't cope with the outdoor life or the war. That's life, you suck it up and move on - you don't go home crying to your mommy (Which he did).

He was an immature jealous prat who needed a swift kick up his ass, he whined and complained that his family didn't have money or honour or whatever and wanted what Harry had - money and fame when Harry would have given it all up just to have one more day with his family - Harry lived in an abusive household, he didn't complain. Ron comes from a family with love, he complained. Ron fans can kiss my ass - he was a weak pathetic character who would have been better off killed off or turn evil - he was heading in that direction anyway (But of course JK can't let her books go off track and kept bringing him back).

...Rant over

On to new programmes - Lie to Me! Best programme ever and I have only seen one episode. I love men who are cynical bastards who tell you what they think - it's so refreshing to people who just take everything standing there. It's nice to see people actually stand up for themselves and telling people what they really think. (Lie to Me, Mentalist and House - the only actors to make cynical bastards hot and cool!)

News - My aunt has a baby boy, who is the cutest thing I have ever seen. Had a baptaiztim on Sunday and the priest kept glaring at me, stupid bastard - just because I like fire does not mean I'm a demon in disguise. I hate church, the bible book burns my hand and I'm just half expecting Dante to come through the stain glass window of the ceiling and blow the priest away (too much Devil May Cry *Rolls Eyes*) Church is annoying and he had no right to glare at me! Watch and see if I ever enter a church again (Don't care if my future husband is a church goer - I'm NOT changing for anybody and planning on Eloping).

Anyway - baby is extremely cute but the one thing I hate is when people have never had children just bounce the babies - I kept thinking he was going to just fly out of their arms! Babies like rocking motions as it reminds them of the wombs - mother don't go around hopping like a flipping kangeroo do they?

Gotta go - Mentalist is coming on! *Grins and squees*

Grey's Anatomy - Mark/Lexi site!

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 20:17:29 GMT

If you like Mark/Lexi from Grey's Anatomy - head over to this site to help us fill it up!

http://littlebigfics.unexpectedly.org/index.php

New Harry Potter Story

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 19:40:04 GMT

I have a new Harry Potter story out! Check it out!

Title: Love Bites

Characters: Harry/Hermione Draco/Luna

Rating: Mature/Adult

Summary: There was another reason why Harry avoided Hermione in third year, he has a secret that he kept from the Muggle and Wizarding world but now he must harness the secret if he is to take down Voldemort.

Question is…will anyone accept him?

Warning: Consensual sex, Vampirism acts, Bashing of Ron and Molly, Bondage, Soul Bonding, Violence and Character Deaths.

Link: http://roswellfanatics.net/viewtopic.php?f=30&t=20145 - Roswell Fanatics
         http://hp.adultfanfiction.net/story.php?no=600021823 - AdultFanfiction.net
         http://fanfiction.portkey.org/story/8347 -Portkey.org
         http://www.fanfiction.net/secure/story/story_edit.php?storyid=4887472/1/ - Fanfiction.net

Up to you where you want to go!

Seeking Fan Fictions/Sites/Pages

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 15:36:33 GMT

Hi - I'm looking for fan fictions and I was hoping that someone out there could point me in the right direction.

I'm seeking Kasumi/Ryu Hayabusa fan fictions, fan sites or web pages (Dead or Alive).

I don't mind what ages they are or what other couples they are as long it has Kasumi/Ryu as a couple. I've been going crazy looking for fan fictions since DOA 4 because I thought more people would start writing fan fictions but it wasn't meant to be.

I have, currently, written 3 dead or alive stories and 2 of them contains Kasumi/Ryu. I'm writing a long shot and 2 short stories that will contain Kasumi/Ryu.

If anyone could help me, I would be eternally grateful.

Thanks!

Friendship questions.

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 19:54:48 GMT

It is times like these you wonder why you bother. Despite being friends since childhood, you can’t help but wonder if it’s time to let the friendship go. Is it smothering you or is it preparing you for life? How do you know the right time? How do you know when a friend stop being a friend and becomes a burden?

It’s never a surprise when she calls up to cancel on me anymore, I have come to accept it but does that mean our friendship has come to an end? When she doesn’t tell me everything yet expects me to tell her everything. Someone who you respect yet can’t show the same for you?

I love my family and I don’t mind hanging out with my little sister. It’s not as if I’m being forced to baby-sit – she’s nearly 14, but when is it against the law to have fun with your own family? When your friend is having a hard time with hers, she expects you to be on the same side as hers? Or when she starts dissing your family because she feels they are taking advantage of you yet she does the same to you – expects you to be there for her when she needs you but cancels at the last minute because her family/boyfriend needs her more than you do? How does that work?

At least, with my family, they give me a straight answer whenever I ask them a question – it’s not a rocket science question when you ask someone if they are going to meet you the day you planned to meet up yet it is to your best friend who keeps talking about a completely different day when you just want a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question?!

How hard is it? ‘Are we going to meet up tomorrow?’ Yes or No – geez, that was hard for me to answer (Sarcasm here).

Is it fair for me to sit around and wait for her when she can’t do the same to me? It’s always changing the time then changing her mind – I can’t do that, I do have other friends and my family who have made plans with me – why should I change them just because my friend keeps changing her mind when she wants to see me?

Is it fair for me to put up with her judging my friends despite the fact she doesn’t know them? I mention one thing they have done and she instantly doesn’t like them – apparently they are a bad influence on me but it makes me wonder – how can we be complete opposite of each other – how can I not be judgemental of people I’ve never met yet she can completely hate my friends based on one thing that she doesn’t like?

I express my concerns, she express her hates – I guess it could seem the same to her – she’s expressing my concerns and I’m expressing my hate but I give reasons to why I’m friends with them – I don’t care if they are gay or if they are a player or if they prefer a different book to her but she holds on tight and doesn’t let go.

It is fair of her to push me to date when I don’t want to just so she can feel better about herself for dating an older man? I’m not ready to date – I’ve never dated, yes, I have been asked out my I have said no.

Of course, everyone is always shocked when I tell them that and they demand to know why I turned them down – yes, they were great and I know that whoever dates them would be very lucky to have them in their lives but they are not for me.

I’m not ready, emotionally and mentally, for a relationship. I just don’t feel ready. Is that so wrong of me? Do I need to see a therapist or a doctor because I’m 21 years old, a virgin and have never dated anyone in my life? Sure, I’ve kissed but that what it was – just a kiss. It meant nothing to me and nothing to them.

Is there something wrong with me for that? It sure feels like it whenever I’m surrounded by them. Older people tell me that there is nothing wrong with me, that it’s perfectly normal for not wanting to date and I will know when I’m ready and I appreciate them for that – now you can see why I can relate better to older people than I do with people my ages – they don’t judge me and they don’t pressure me.

But every time I’m in my friends company – my doubts arises and I start to wonder if there really is something wrong with me – do I deserve this doubt for turning down the boys who have asked me out? Do I deserve this doubt for not giving into pressure and sleeping with the boys when they have asked me or would I have regretted it for my entire life that I gave into the pressure? We will never know because you can’t go back in time and if you can – you shouldn’t.

It is times like these you sit back and wonder if friendship is really worth it till you remember the good times you had – the times you laughed and shared secrets, you could tell each other everything and wouldn’t get judged.

Maybe I’m looking in the wrong place for friends or maybe some people are just not meant to have friends – either way – how do you know that a friendship has run its course and are better off set free?

I don’t…and I’m too scared to open my eyes to face the reality.

Question of the day: Does friendship save a life or hinder it?

Don't Act Like... (Question for me)

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 09:12:46 GMT

According to my friends (both Male and Female) I don't act like a Virgin...one question, how do you act like a virgin?

Yes, I talk about sex, I am 20 coming 21, but big deal, you have to know about sex before you actually have sex otherwise there is no point in having sex because you don't know what is going to happen. Me, I've known about sex since I was seven years old and it doesn't embarrass me because sex is a natural part of our lives...how else are babies made (Other than the other routes) but why should I have to act like I'm a virgin and not know about sex?

My male friends, the most, says that I'm wasting time by staying a virgin and that I should find a boyfriend straight away, sorry if I'm actually a little busy with college at the moment, I can't afford the distraction that could cost me my grade at the end of the year, by passing this, I have free range to do what I want in my career and that seems a little important.

I know that my first time will suck, seems like everyone does, but is it truly wrong for me to want to wait till I've met someone I feel I could really care about? Maybe even love or am I just being delusional?

Of course, that doesn't stop them from offering themselves (In other words, pressure me) for me to 'practice' on...why do they think I would sleep with them? I care about them but not sexually, there is a major difference there! Beside, that means losing my virginity to them and I'm not that confident they deserve it.

I mean, since when is a person not allowed to know about sex till they have actually done it? So, I know most of the sexual positions but it doesn't mean that I'm practicing them out in secret, I do read you know otherwise my life would be hard considering the fact I need subtitles to understand the programme/films and my college includes reading. There are also plenty of films/sex educational films out there that can help people understand.

Of course, it could be that I'm confident in myself and don't really give a damn about what other thinks of me. If I know about sex, big deal but why is it such a big deal that a virgin is knowledgeable about sex in theory than practice? I understand the boys (They are not men, trust me) but why is a big deal with the other girls? My female friends finds it hard to believe I'm a virgin, despite the fact they know I don't date and any boys I do meet up just becomes a friend of mine. Of course, I know the boys just wants to be the one to 'break the cherry' so to speak but what about the girls? I hardly think they are interested in me sexually considering the fact they've all got boyfriends.

In other words, why should a girl be expected to be a slut when she knows about sex and a virgin is expected to be dumb when it comes to sex?

According to my teachers (old and new), Clients, my family and even my doctor, I don't act like I'm deaf....how the HELL does that work?

Sure, I can talk but so can everyone else, they just have different means of conversing with other people - these things do happen. But my main question is...to the public view, just how is a deaf person supposed to act? Dumb? (The person who thought up this saying should be shot). There are plenty of smart deaf people out there (I do know some idiots but they don't really count to be honest) and they can all lead their lives pretty well despite the fact they are deaf but why does the public continue to say we don't act like we are deaf?

Take me, I'm the only person in my family who is deaf (My papa doesn't count as his hearing loss is due to age) and so far, all testings shows that the doctors have NO idea why I'm deaf (Why am I going through this again?) so basically I grew up surrounded by hearing people (Mostly boys are all my male cousins were born around the same time as me or same length - there's not even a huge gap of age between any of us) and my primary school that I went two only had two deaf people, me and another boy who was a year younger than us.

I got along fine with my classmates and my teachers have said in their reports that my classmates have even asked me for help when they were stuck with something.

My secondary school is where it all hit hard, there was a Hearing mpaired Unit (HIU), which we called the Deaf Unit. That was when I first met more than enough deaf people and I have noticed they act differently but they don't act like they are deaf.

Question is...how does the public see a deaf person (in their mind or in reality) and why am I such a surprise to them?

Question of the day: Is being a Virgin such a big deal because of life known today or is it just a shock that girl can have a moral when it comes to sexual relationships?

Another Rant: Games/Books vs Films

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 15:29:55 GMT

What is it with everyone when it comes to books/games being made into films then chewing them out?

I watched Resident Evil, 3rd, and I enjoyed it, No, I've never played the game - I tried it once but the cameras sucked so I gave up - no point in trying to kill myself.

I get that people expect it to be just like the books/games but don't make me laugh. If I didn't expect Harry Potter to follow the books when it was made into a film, I am most certainly not expecting the games to be the same when made into films. If I can see that, then surely everyone else can.

The reason why they wouldn't create the games into films because it limits everything. No one wants to see a repeat of the game, I don't - if I nearly got a headache with the camera angles in the game, I don't even wanna know what I would be like if it had been the same in the film.

Maybe I'm biased when it comes to Films but I don't see the problem with having a female lead. I have no problem with a male lead but to be honest, seeing the male just carry a gun and throw a punch every now and then, it does tend to wear on you and it's better having a woman who can kick ass rather than cowering in the corner expecting the man to save her.

Wake up and smell the coffee, Woman are taking their own leads into the world and it's bound to hit the film. Women are more likely to be projects because of how everything used to be. Men like men and scared of woman who can speak their mind.

If you want to see a film based on a game, exactly like the game...there is only one thing you can do - PLAY THE GAME! Quit going to the movies when you know that it's not going to follow the route. You know it's not going to follow it yet you whine and you complain that it's not following the route.

Do I complain about Harry Potter and the Dark Materials being screwed up? No...why, because I knew they would never follow the game. Now, guarantee that I've not actually had any games made into films (Other than Dead or Alive, which I avoided like mad because the trailer was just crap and I prefer computer generation when it comes to games), I can still see the annoyance but if you really like the game...don't watch the film. It is simple as that.

You're the one who are wasting your time and your money on watching/buying the film when you know it's not going the same direction yet you still do it?

Question is...why do you continue to do this to yourself when you know it's not going to go the way you want it to go?

Think about it and don't complain!

Rant. Warning - Smallville (Or shall I say Lanaville?)

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 20:19:33 GMT

Seriously - what the HELL is up with this show?

At first I was all excited because we have a new Clark Kent background Programme to watch and at the beginning I got into Clark and Lana being a couple (Though I knew it wouldn't last because Clark was meant to be with Lois) but come on! We are on - what? Sixth season now and they STILL have Lana as the main character - WTF?!

I thought the show was supposed to be about Clark Kent realizing that he was an alien and indestructible and him growing up to become the man we know as Superman - who the hell said that Lana Lang is Superwoman? I mean, seriously? The whining woman who complains that everyone dies on her?

Very sorry that Whitney died in war, very sorry that Jason died on you during a metor attack. Very sorry that your parents died on your while they came to pick you up but it doesn't give you the right to whine every two flipping seconds.

At first, I liked Lana - she was interesting next door girl, the one what you see is what you get (Man! Was I wrong about that?) but now she has become the major star of the show! It's like the directors are trying to think up what would make her 'perfect'.

Erm...here's my thought - Dead!

I don't give a damn what excuse the director has (they have a crush on Kristen - jeez, pervet much? I really do feel sorry for Kristen - she deserves way better) but they have to admit that she is getting pretty thin.

Girl who has guys falling all over her - Lana.
Girl who has to be a damsal in distress - Lana.
Girl who has to kick ass - Lana.
Girl who needs to have a background as a witch - Lana.
Girl who needs to get married to Lex - Lana (What the hell was Lex drinking at the time?!)
Girl who needs to have every single guy wrapped around her finger and another guy in her back pocket - Lana. (If you haven't notice this, don't feel bad - we were all wearing the pink Lana glasses).
Girl who needs to be in a bad relationship causing Clark to rescuse her at every time - Lana.
Girl who can keep secrets but no one else is allowed to keep secrets from her - Lana
Girl who CAN'T have anyone falling OUT of love with her...are you seeing a pattern here? Lana wins again.

If you think Lana is perfect - then why are you reading this?

My first thought - 'oh, she's the next door girl, the one what you see is what you get' HA! Laugh in my face why don't you? I have never met a more bitchier, self absorbed, spoiled little brat to walk on screen (And trust me, I've had my fair share of hating characters - I don't hate Ayane more than I hate Lana.)

Every guy she dates (Seems to meet a sticky end if you think about it - AH! She IS a black widow!) always seems to be trying to get out of her control and when that happens - she goes to the person she has in back pocket to sort them out. Don't believe me?

Whitney - Clark
Clark - Lex
Jason - Clark
Clark - Lex
Lex - Clark.

Only god can hope that she doesn't sink her claws into Clark again.

When did this show stop becoming about Clark Kent and start being about Lana Lang? What happened to Lois Lane or Chloe Sullivan - heck! I'd go for more evil Luthor or even bring back the horse! That horse had more commonsense that girl - he did kick her *Grins evily as she remembers*

*Back to reality* The directors need to buck up their ideas and kick Lana Lang's slutty ass out of the town (I find it hard that she has not slept with Whitney or Jason - sorry.) so Kristen can find a proper job with someone who would actually respect her. I saw her in Snow White and she was BRILLIANT in it - she has a great talent and a great potential for future films/programmes - only if the men will let her go.

People have left the show because they said they didn't like where it was going - can any of us see where it's going? Let me give you a hint.

'Welcome to Smallville - the town of Metorites' -> 'Welcome to Lanaville, where Lana is our Queen'.

If that happens - then book me on the next spaceship out into space and may I pity Clark Kent for being forever doomed to go back to Whiny Lana Lana when he could have a hottie like Lois Lane in his bed.

Ghostly Encounter or Just a Overactive Imagination?

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 19:52:12 GMT

Have you ever had those times where you feel eyes staring at your back only for you to realize that you are alone. That's there's no one else in the room with you - well, no one you can see.

I know a lot of people brush it off and say 'it's just your imagination' but really, when does the line between Overactive Imagination stop and it becomes something that is too real for you to brush off.

Take me for example. I was in the shower. Both parent at work, sister at school. No pets, no one in the house. Front door is locked and so is the bathroom yet I still felt like there was someone in the shower with me. I turn around and freak out when I see a floating face past my shower curtains.

Sure - that could be an overactive imagination - I mean, the people who really knows me can say 'oh there she goes, watching more horror films or playing more horror survival games' but when does that line stop and you realize that you are not really alone. My heart was pounding like fast and I just laughed it off, saying that I was just imagining it but was I really? The more I try and analyze it, the more I realize that I can't. There is no explanation given.

Sure, people can say that ghosts don't exist - but then again, we all thought the world was flat and that the sun revolved around the earth. Why should it be a surprise to find out that Ghost just might exist.

Have you ever had that feeling before, where you're walking somewhere then all of a sudden you just stop in mid-step and look back only to realize that there was no reason to stop. No one called your name, no one made any attempt to attract your attention yet you just stopped and for the life of you, you can't figure out why?

Why does these things happen? A sense of De-Ji-Vu? Sure - I seem to get that a lot but is it a warning or is it something more...spiritual?

All I'm saying is, don't be in a hurry to close your mind to the possibilities that someone just may be watching you while you're in the shower - after all, ghosts can be peeping toms too.

Quote: Don't look back - you might not like what you see.

Sat, 24 Nov 2007 09:00:30 GMT

Here's site that no one seems to go on yet should be going on it!

If you are a major Malon/Link fan - get over here and start posting stories and pictures! Have fun with and I'll see you there!

http://z7.invisionfree.com/My_MaLink_Forum/index.php?

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 08:53:46 GMT

You Are Valentine's Day

You are a true romantic who places the ultimate importance on love.
You are warm hearted, and you find it easy to care for people.
Love is what drives you - and you have a love to give.
You enjoy making someone's day. You're full of surprises.

What makes you celebrate: Being with the person you love on a special day

At holiday get togethers, you do best as: The sentimental one

On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: See it as romantic and special

Heads Up!

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 20:54:48 GMT

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Link for Harmony AKA Harry/Hermione from Harry Potter:
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Check it out if you are a fan!

Disability

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 10:27:04 GMT

I was filling out my form for a Disability Allowance but I came to a stop at a page that asked me to write down how my hearing has affected my life (To talk about problems that I hadn't written in the pages before it) and it got me thinking - really thinking.

How has my disability affected my life?

I can't hear - sure but am I really missing anything out? I wear hearing aids thus I can 'technially' hear but there are things I do miss out - conversations, it's harder to hear the lyrics unless I have the written Lyrics with me but am I really missing anything out?

I don't have to answer the phone (No sales people who won't take no for an answer), I don't have to answer the door (More sales/relgions people). These are all the things you get when you have normal hearing - sure, you can have conversations with people you love/like on the phone but I can do the same thing - texts messages and it's more thoughtful because the people are taking the time to text the message to make sure it's what it like.

Of course - there are a bunch of coward who would rather dump a person over text (I mean, come on! At least have the courage to face them to dump them!)

I can use the e-mail - which is actually quite handy than sending a letter (Unless you write a letter and post it yourself - do you really want to wait a couple of days before the person gets them?)

I understand people over the internet better than I do in real life? Why - in real life, we all have a persona that creats a wall around us and we can't really admit to things on real life that we can over the internet because of the anoyomous - these people can't judge you because they only know of your interest - not you.

My mother tried to explain that there are things that I'm missing out being deaf - that I actually might be more outgoing than I am now - that I would actually like going to the cinema because I can hear the film or going for a cup of coffee with a friend or going to a nightclub.

Well one - I would be surprised if anyone can actually understand most of the films these days - before, I could sit there and understand the plot but now - they have made the plot so complicated that the film has now turned complicated. - Why go to the cinema to be confused when you can get the DVD and be confused at home with the option of rewinding to understand a part better.

Two - I HATE coffee so why would I want to go and get one with my friend? She actually meant that I would be more liable to go outside with my friends rather than sit around in the house - well, I would prefer the house rather than outside because there aren't really any seats you can sit on outside so you can talk.

Three - Nightclubs? I get a headache just going to a party - why on earth would I want to go to a nightclub.

Please bear in mind that I'm 20 and I don't drink, do drugs or smoke - I have enough problems in my life without those three making it even more tougher and how on earth do you have a conversation in a nightclub - if normal people can barely hear each other in a nightclub - what chance do I have?

I can go out - but why be lonely surrounded by people when you can be lonely in your home, content with whatever you are doing?

Me being deaf is like a break for me - I can sleep at night without any noises annoying me and when I take off my hearing aids and just walk the streets, completely deaf - it's like being on another world. You can just go through the motions without any barrier preventing you.

Sure - I find it hard to cross the road, especially with the drivers they are today but doesn't everyone? I try and look both ways but when a driver is speeding off - you don't really get a chance, do you?

Me being deaf - I've never had any complaints about being deaf - it made me who I am, I'm more understanding because I know what it's like to be sterotyped - you go into a cafe or something and someone finds out that you are deaf and starts acting like you are dumb - it's worth the look on their face when they realise that I can actually speak and I speak like a normal human rather than a robot. It's those moments I find the 'normal' people VERY weird and wonder how we actually get along.

Of course - you do get the occassional immature people you actually thought you had left back in primary or secondary school - people who find out that you are deaf and start covering their mouth in attempt to make your life harder - I just shake my head and walk off - what's the point of wasting my time when I could be doing something else.

Of course - it does make scary films harder to scare me considering the fact that I can't actually hear the haunting music - fun seeing everyone else jump and wondering just what I had missed - gotta say, I'm glad that I miss those part.

Have you ever had a moment you just want to switch the whole world off and bask in your peacefulness but find you can't because something always gets in the way? I can - all I have to do is switch my hearing aids off and close my eyes and the whole world just falls away.

Peace never gets the cherished moment that it deserves. My life is so busy with people coming in and out because they are so convinced that I'm missing out on my life by being deaf that they don't bother to ask my - How does my hearing affect me?

It gave me peace. It gave me understanding. I don't feel that I'm missing out on anything just because I'm deaf - I don't feel the need to resent the world just because I became deaf. I became deaf for a reason - maybe it has revealed itself or maybe it's still waiting to reveal itself but I don't care.

I love being deaf - I get excuses for when I miss something out in class or conversation but all together, I accept who I am because being deaf - I'm different.

Sure - there are hard moments of being deaf - when people forget that I'm deaf (and that happens ALOT!) because I act like a normal person and just get on with my life. I don't need sign languages because I lip read so they have a tendancy to turn their back on me while talking or just moving about.

But the thing is - If I know them so well - I can actually understand what they are saying despite their back is turned to me - always a shocker.

The one thing I hate being deaf is when you tell someone you are deaf - they can become apologic and say that they are sorry - why? If anyone who should be sorry - it should be me, for being stuck with a close minded person who belives that me being deaf is a fault of my own or my parents.

I'm just like a normal human being - I have worries, fears, problems. I have my own interests, favourites books, stories, films and games.

But at the same time I'm different because I prefer to be at peace and be content rather than go out like any normal person when I can have the comfort of my own home and make sure that my guests are comfortable as well.

Why pay to go out when you can get them free at home?

So next time you see a disabled person - don't pity them - wonder to yourself would you have the strength to go through what they go through each day and be thankful.

Quote of the day 'Just what is NORMAL?'